What A Nite

Seeing his face sleeping so tight remind me how much i missed the guy, he's so sweet and adorable and he seemed to love me but i didn't know for sure. I just sat near him while he was sleeping and heard his breath softly gentle in my ear, that time i wanted to kiss him but all i could dare to do was sitting down near him and watced him.
And after a while suddenly he opened up his eyes, i was a little bit shocked cos he opened his eyes suddenly, and he catched me was staring at him closely...i just smiled and so did he... then we seperated, but not too far, i approached to him then we looked at our each other eyes then we kissed!!!! My gosh, he had the most gentle and sweet kiss... far from lust...i like his kiss...i shaked head to toe feeling his heart beat so hard.. but it was hapen so fast.... but the memory left so strong into my mind...
What a Nite... what a guy...

Sometime When We Touch

You ask me if I love you, and I choke on my reply
Id rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
Im only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much, and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all it's strategy leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity some tenderness survives
Im just another writer, still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prize fighter, still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much, and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you and drag you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you, and I know how hard you've tried
Ive watch while love commands you
And Ive watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters, still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister, but then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much, and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

26 Februari 2009...The Night....

Can not touch
Can not hold
Can not be together

Can not love
Can not kiss
Can not have each other

Must be strong ,
And we must let go
Can not say
What our heart must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

Can not dream
Can not share
Sweet and tender moments

Can not feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over

Must be brave
And we must go on
Must not say,
What we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

Must be brave
And we must be strong
Can not say,
What we've known all along

Lirik lagu diatas mewakili apa yg aku rasakan ke kamu....
after our kiss that day aku semakin ter"ikat" oleh pesona diri kamu,
tiap tetes airmata tidak mampu mewakili perasaan rindu
yang saat ini berkecamuk didalam hatiku.
Semakin aku memandang-mu, semakin aku rasakan kedalaman cinta ku kepadamu,
aku tau cinta ini suatu kesalahn dan terlarang
tapi aku tak mampu membendung kekuatan cinta itu...
Apakah kamu dapat merasakan apa yang aku rasakan?
dapatkah kamu merasakan duri kerinduan yang menusuk setiap bagian terkecil hatiku?
Aku tidak menyangka rasa ini begitu hebat menyerangku,
dan saat bibir kita bertemu malam itu
semua gejolak perasaan yang terpendam selama 20thn
seakan melebur menjadi satu, semua kerinduan, kekaguman, kebanggan,
dan rasa sayang...
semua bercampur seperti sengatan listrik diseluruh tubuhku...
Aku ingin mencium sekali lagi bibir lembut-mu,
merasakan sekali lagi sentuhan jemari tangan-mu ditubuh-ku,
dan merasakan engkau didalam aku dan aku didalam-mu...

Maafkan aku untuk semua kesulitan yg engkau hadapi karena cinta-ku....
Maafkan aku untuk ketidak-mampuanku menghapus bayang-bayangmu dari hidupku
dan jiwaku...

Aku selalu mencintai-mu....

--
"Hakuna Matata.."