December 2020 ....
Hari terakhir gw bicara secara normal dan abnormal dengannya. Sikapnya yang acuh dan berusaha terlihat "bersih" semakin membuat gw emosi. Sampai dengan Februari 2025, sejak saat itu we didn't talk to each other, meski statementnya yang disampaikan berbeda ddengan yang dilakukan. Awalnya sakit hati dengan sikap itu, tapi di satu titik gw dapat mengerti siakpnya memposisikan gw seperti sampah. So, I decided to support what he did and treated me. Funny thing happens, all those silly feelings just gone, the hurt, the pain, the missing, the sadness, all dissapeard. I am OK
March 2025 .....
Being busy with work helps me to think of nothing about him. I was enjoying my work managing all the participants at the event. 54 people got invited. On the third day. "Please, don't upload anything," that voice suddenly showed up and was heard clearly. Without any signs or bulshit, hello, just said like that!
Well, there was a person who treated me like I was some garbage that didn't deserve to be treated like a human, and that person talked to me. I was surprised, just didn't understand a happy one or a scary one!
APRIL 2025
Memaafkan atau melupakan, mana yang lebih baik dilakukan, karena I think we can not do both at the same time. Aku memaafkan tapi surely, can not forget it, yet. Mana dari kedua hal tersebut jika kita lakukan menjadikan kita pribadi yang baik, entah di mata manusia atau Tuhan.Apakah begitu salahnya saat kita mengatakan yang sesungguhnya tentang sesuatu tanpa sengaja, sehingga kita pantas diperlakukan seperti sampah? Atau itu cara halus menutupi kesalahan agar terlihat memperbaiki, namun sebenarnya mencari cara baru untuk membohongi kembali???
