How Do I Live

Best song ever...

How do I
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?

Oh now
I need you in my arms need you to hold
You're my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave

Baby you would take away everything good in my life.
 

hhmmm...Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life

There'd be no world left for me.
(And I) Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,

If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
 

How do I live without you?

I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

If you ever leave,

Baby you would take away everything,

need you with me,

Baby 'cause you know that you're everything,
Good in my life.
And tell me now,
 

How do I live without you,

I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live, without you baby

Song by Trisha Yearwood

Here in My Heart

Sometimes there's a time you must say goodbye
Thought it hurts you must learn to try
I know I've got to let you go
But I know anywhere you go
You'll never be far
Cause like the light over bright star
You'll be shining in my life
You're gonna be right

Chorus
Here in my heart
That's where you'll be
You'll be with me here
Here in my heart
No distance can keep us apart
As long as you're here in my heart

Won't be any tears falling from these eyes
Cause when loves true love never dies
It stays alive forever
Time can't take away what we have
I'll remember our time together
You may think our time is true
But I'll still have you

Chorus
I know you'll be back again
And till then
My heart is waiting
Chorus

*by Tiffany*

the word

wouw...i ever in that situation ...OR still i guess....?! hmmm....

i never plan being this stupid! Please after what i have been thru how come i am this stupid.... and nope i never settle being his other!

i know i should have listen to my heart and all the signs from "inside" but i was too blind and deaf hearing my heart's voice when it said "hey..this is wrong..you do wrong Vicky, you're gonna get hurt again just like the old days!!"

And today, one statement, one word, enough to snap me on my face and show me that i am just the "other" person...oouuucchhhh....

i know he didn't mean that *and absolutely onething that snap me is my guilty feeling*, but somehow that word shows who i am trully...well in my own way. He just do his part as a good hubby *can't complain with that, can i* and it's not his fault i know that, but like it or not it also makes me see the fact. The fact is i am just the OTHER, the fact is i am NO ONE, the fact is i have did wrong thing....and it's gonna need to stop right away.

Damn... it hurts thou'.... yes it's shockin' and awful...but hey that's the fact...

i know he won't ever hurt me, he always taking care of my feelings i can feel that, but we do have boundaries that we can't avoid of and we need to keep our distance so that the situation doesn't awkward between us if we're in public.

And still when that word came out from him....somehow i get reminded (by that word) of my position.... and yes it makes me thinking about this relationship between us...