wouw...i ever in that situation ...OR still i guess....?! hmmm....
i never plan being this stupid! Please after what i have been thru how come i am this stupid.... and nope i never settle being his other!
i know i should have listen to my heart and all the signs from "inside" but i was too blind and deaf hearing my heart's voice when it said "hey..this is wrong..you do wrong Vicky, you're gonna get hurt again just like the old days!!"
And today, one statement, one word, enough to snap me on my face and show me that i am just the "other" person...oouuucchhhh....
i know he didn't mean that *and absolutely onething that snap me is my guilty feeling*, but somehow that word shows who i am trully...well in my own way. He just do his part as a good hubby *can't complain with that, can i* and it's not his fault i know that, but like it or not it also makes me see the fact. The fact is i am just the OTHER, the fact is i am NO ONE, the fact is i have did wrong thing....and it's gonna need to stop right away.
Damn... it hurts thou'.... yes it's shockin' and awful...but hey that's the fact...
i know he won't ever hurt me, he always taking care of my feelings i can feel that, but we do have boundaries that we can't avoid of and we need to keep our distance so that the situation doesn't awkward between us if we're in public.
And still when that word came out from him....somehow i get reminded (by that word) of my position.... and yes it makes me thinking about this relationship between us...
