Read Me#2

I try so hard not to fall in love with you, coz it’s impossible to have your heart,

I try so hard to deny my self from your charmed, coz you are so  … perfect

I try so hard to conviencing my self that the feeling only temporary, coz how can I let go of something that so perfect,

I try so hard to let go of you, coz i worried that I would only be in your way,

Sorry for making you not comfort with my feeling,

Don’t let me have your heart if I only cause pain to you,please…

I’m sorry for making this relationship away from fun,

I’m sorry for making your days miserable because of my attitude,

I mess up, I start fights, I easily got jealous, but

you mean so much to me that’s the truth, even it’s hard for you to believe but it’s true…

I did it again right? And if I say am sorry it won’t matter anymore, I did it hundred of times

But yet still have the jealousy to you and her…

Dunno why gossip kedekatan elu dan dirinya harus muncul  saat  gw mulai belajar meyakini diri gw that I mean something to you.

And like u said, this relationship suppose to be fun and I did, your presence memberikan gw semangat lebih dalam menjalani hari (apalagi hari kerja and hari “our date” coz hy hari hari itu gw bisa ketemu elu and pretend you were mine hehehe), membuat  gw merasa punya arti, memberi keyakinan diri lebih dan membuat gw belajar percaya kembali to you and my own self , until that sucks gossip, and it’s really effect everything I try to believe.

Maaf utk soal “colek-colek”, pikiran sesaat dari apa yg pernah terjadi and asli sebel saat  liat kalian berdampingan (pls don’t ask why, have no answer).

keputusan elu bener utk tinggalin gue, ended this relationship, kemari-kemari yg ada cuma debat and arguing (and we both tired of that) apalagi dg adanya "pacar" yg ngejar-ngejar elu terus, entahlah …. I only hurted you more and more ….

Gw sayang elu, and you mean everything to me, this relationship means a lot to me, meski hy sesaat gw bersama elu, itu sangat berarti utk gw… ga ingin mengakhiri tapi jika melihat gw me”lukai’ elu dg pertanyaan dan kecurigaan rasanya ga pantes elu memberikan hati elu dan bertahan dengan perempuan macam gue . Wish someday we could sitting down just two of us and discuss about the matter ..

Sungguh gw sayang elu Ri, I dunno why I have no answer, but itu yg gw rasa….  Gw melukai elu terus ya, don’t forgive me but please don’t hate me because of that, thank you for choosing me from all the rest..

Take care and thanks for this beautiful year you have given to me… missing you

-V-

Read Me #1

I am sorry…….

Sorry for all the doubts ….

Sorry for all the questions ….

Sorry for not believing ….

Sorry for all the assumptions …

Sorry for all the pain…

I try so hard not to fall in love with you, coz it’s impossible to have your heart,

I try so hard to deny my self from loving you, coz you are so  … perfect

I try so hard to conviencing  my self that the feeling only temporary, coz how can I let go of something that so perfect,

I try so hard to let go of you, coz i worried that I would only be in your way,

Sorry for making you not comfort with this feeling,

Sorry for making you hurt because of my feeling,

Don’t let me have your heart if I only cause pain to you,

I won’t forgive my self if I hurted you

I’m sorry for making this relationship away from fun,

I’m sorry for making your days miserable because of my attitude,

I really am sorry … from the deep of my heart sorry,

I mess up, I start fights, I easily got jealous, but

You mean so much to me that’s the truth, even it’s hard for you to believe but it’s true…

I’m sorry I love you ….

Thank you for your time reading this,

Have  a lovely day….

takecare

XMas Note

My favourite lines of you :

1. “Meski ga jadi pun gw tetep sayang elu”

2. “… sini,napa marah-marah mulu siy, you have my heart…”

3. “Kalau lu masih percaya. Nothing happen between gw dan dia. Gw gap pusing ama omongan  orang. Selama lu gak percaya dgn berita itu.”

4. "Hari ini elu nyebelin banget, sumpah"

5. “.. ML yu”

6. "gw di Lawson sambil menikmati kopiko dan sisa kenikmatan elu,Nikmat”

7. "thanks honey, i love it as i love you”

8. “gak mungkin gue gak suka sama elu…cuma elu yang selalu ada saat gw perlu bantuan…”

9. “biasa aja koq gw ke mereka, gue hanya melakukannya sama elu…..gw berusaha untuk menahan perasaan gue sebisa mungkin krn banyak yang memperhatikan..”

Bole jujur?

The truth :

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       I love you

that’s the truth.. the holy truth nothing but the truth… I like you, the 1^st day I saw you played in that video untuk acara kantor, you were thin, but you have that gorgeous smile in the world I guess. Dunno rasa sayang seperti apa yg gue rasakan, namun rasa sayang itu mengajari gue mencintai dalam diam, dengan isyarat yang tak’kan tertangkap oleh indera. The reason I wanted to did it with you coz I begun to love you, ga pernah berharap elu membalasnya, coz I think dg banyaknya cewek2 di sekitar elu yg elu teasing dengan kata “sayang”, “ cantik”, “kangen”, kata-kata itu tidak akan mempunyai arti yg special lagi dan it just became a phrase. So, I choose silent and move away and let those ladies and you to have your own happiness.

-        I believe you

I think I did, not only your words to me but also to those ladies. The only problem was I never heard you say to me those romantic lines and the compliments you said to them. So, I used to believe only them had meaning to you. That’s why malam itu when you said, “ meski ga jadi pun gw tetep sayang elu” it shocked the hell of me, coz I think selama ini yg elu sayang hanya those ladies yg elu dekati, that night was the 1^st time you said sayang sama gw. After sekian lama meyakini “apalah gue ini dibanding cewe2 di hidup elu” kalimat itu menyentak gw that you were noticed dg kehadiran gue and sekaligus scared me to death.

Christmas Note~My Favourite Lines of you

My favourite lines of you :

1. “Meski ga jadi pun gw tetep sayang elu”

2. “… sini,napa marah-marah mulu siy, you have my heart…”

3. “Kalau lu masih percaya. Nothing happen between gw dan dia. Gw gap pusing ama omongan  orang. Selama lu gak percaya dgn berita itu.”

4. "Hari ini elu nyebelin banget, sumpah"

5. “.. ML yu”

6. "gw di Lawson sambil menikmati kopiko dan sisa kenikmatan elu,Nikmat”

7. "thanks honey, i love it as i love you”

8. “gak mungkin gue gak suka sama elu…cuma elu yang selalu ada saat gw perlu bantuan…”

9. “biasa aja koq gw ke mereka, gue hanya melakukannya sama elu…..gw berusaha untuk menjaga perasaan gue sebisa mungkin krn banyak yang memperhatikan..”