Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Kushi Kabhie Gham
Tere Saath Hongi Meri Duaayen
Aaye Kabhi Na Tujh Pe Koyi Balaayen
Tere Saath Hongi Meri Duaayen
Aaye Kabhi Na Tujh Pe Koyi Balaayen
Mera Dil Yeh Kahe Tu Jahan Bhi Rahen
Har Gadi Har Kushi Chume Tere Kadam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge HumKabhi Kushi Kabhie Gham
December 28, 2007
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera SaayaTeri Pooja Karoon Main To Hardam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Teri Pooja Karoon Main To Hardam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Suboh Shyaam Charno Mein Diye Hum Jalayen
Dekhen Yahan Bhi Dekhen Tujhko Hi Paayen
Suboh Shyaam Charno Mein Diye Hum Jalayen
Dekhen Yahan Bhi Dekhen Tujhko Hi Paayen
In Labon Pe Tera Bas Tera Naam Ho
In Labon Pe Tera Bas Tera Naam Ho
Pyaar Dil Se Kabhi Hi Na Ho Kam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Yeh Ghar Nahin Hai Mandir Hai Tera
Is Mein Sada Rahe Tera Basera
Yeh Ghar Nahi Hai Mandir Hai Tera
Is Mein Sada Rahe Tera Basera
Khushboon Se Teri Yeh Mehektha Rahen
Khushboon Se Teri Yeh Mehektha Rahen
Aaye Jaaye Bhale Hi Koyi Mausam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Teri Pooja Karoon Main To Hardam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge HumKabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge HumKabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera SaayaTeri Pooja Karoon Main To Hardam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Teri Pooja Karoon Main To Hardam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Suboh Shyaam Charno Mein Diye Hum Jalayen
Dekhen Yahan Bhi Dekhen Tujhko Hi Paayen
Suboh Shyaam Charno Mein Diye Hum Jalayen
Dekhen Yahan Bhi Dekhen Tujhko Hi Paayen
In Labon Pe Tera Bas Tera Naam Ho
In Labon Pe Tera Bas Tera Naam Ho
Pyaar Dil Se Kabhi Hi Na Ho Kam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Yeh Ghar Nahin Hai Mandir Hai Tera
Is Mein Sada Rahe Tera Basera
Yeh Ghar Nahi Hai Mandir Hai Tera
Is Mein Sada Rahe Tera Basera
Khushboon Se Teri Yeh Mehektha Rahen
Khushboon Se Teri Yeh Mehektha Rahen
Aaye Jaaye Bhale Hi Koyi Mausam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge Hum
Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Meri Saason Mein Tu Hai Samaya
Mera Jeevan To Hai Tera Saaya
Teri Pooja Karoon Main To Hardam
Yeh Hai Tere Karam Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge HumKabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Na Judaa Honge HumKabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Tear of the heart
Have you ever been trying to look inside my heart?
Have you ever been trying to see my suffer?
Have you ever been trying to feel my bitterness?
Is it hard trying to love me?
Is it hard to accept my self?
where is my fault so you giving me that pain? where is my fault so heart wounded that you scrap into my love?where is my fault so only the tears you created to fill my days..
Is it my fault if i loving you and made me deserve tobe your sadness victim...
Is it my fault if i loving you and made you deserve to take all on me...
Is it by loving you made me as a meat that deserve tobe cut in every inch of my heart..
Is it loving you made me nothing more than a love bagger...
I am who i am...
im only a person who come with love and want to heal your wound in your heart, a person who'd like to cheer your days, a person who willing to feel and share your pain,
so i could see the smile again in your face and hearing your laugh coloring the days, so i could see life into your eyes, so you could be able trust in LOVE, so you could thru the nightmares and in the perfect day i could take you to the right one who you love and care..
Come back to the your love one...
If the happiness only with her... be with her,
If the joyfull is her present .... call her...
I'll be here to see your happiness, i'll be here to see your laughter, i'll be here with all the memories, i'll be here with all the pains... pains that make you happy...
Have you ever been trying to see my suffer?
Have you ever been trying to feel my bitterness?
Is it hard trying to love me?
Is it hard to accept my self?
where is my fault so you giving me that pain? where is my fault so heart wounded that you scrap into my love?where is my fault so only the tears you created to fill my days..
Is it my fault if i loving you and made me deserve tobe your sadness victim...
Is it my fault if i loving you and made you deserve to take all on me...
Is it by loving you made me as a meat that deserve tobe cut in every inch of my heart..
Is it loving you made me nothing more than a love bagger...
I am who i am...
im only a person who come with love and want to heal your wound in your heart, a person who'd like to cheer your days, a person who willing to feel and share your pain,
so i could see the smile again in your face and hearing your laugh coloring the days, so i could see life into your eyes, so you could be able trust in LOVE, so you could thru the nightmares and in the perfect day i could take you to the right one who you love and care..
Come back to the your love one...
If the happiness only with her... be with her,
If the joyfull is her present .... call her...
I'll be here to see your happiness, i'll be here to see your laughter, i'll be here with all the memories, i'll be here with all the pains... pains that make you happy...
to my old pal...
Every night and day you had become my truth friend, you always there when i laughed, you're there when i cried and we cried together, you're there etime i needed you, you're become my bad and happy times witness..
When i was happy i come to you..
when i was crying hard i also come to you...
when i hide my self from the situation it was you i headed for,
and you lawyas faithfuly giving me a warm feelings...
Now, we've been seperated, now we've been torn apart..
I had to let you go and so did you...
becouz the situation now we couldn't be together again...
Alot of memories i had made with you...
Now, you had to rest and enjoy every single day of yours...
Im still here, im not going anywehere, but you remeber this even now im with another i still remember you, i still with you wherever you go..
And nothing could replace you in my heart... only you and you... my old matress
When i was happy i come to you..
when i was crying hard i also come to you...
when i hide my self from the situation it was you i headed for,
and you lawyas faithfuly giving me a warm feelings...
Now, we've been seperated, now we've been torn apart..
I had to let you go and so did you...
becouz the situation now we couldn't be together again...
Alot of memories i had made with you...
Now, you had to rest and enjoy every single day of yours...
Im still here, im not going anywehere, but you remeber this even now im with another i still remember you, i still with you wherever you go..
And nothing could replace you in my heart... only you and you... my old matress
Reviews of 2007
JANUARY
I started the Year with alot of prays and...feelings... a little hope that i would thru this year with happiness..
22 January was Elvina Ruth Wendelline Maulany day's birth, both mother and baby in gud shape...
FEBRUARY
The worst Valentine's Day ever... flood came to my grandma's house.. the worst one...
MARCH
Alot of B'day parties among family member... but what most greatful to The Lord was i stil could have my Mom beside me...
APRIL
Felt no breath... too much things hapens and i couldn't face them at once... but LIFE, it never thinks your strength, you just had to stood up there and faced all of them with the strength you've got!! Loosed my boss cos of her resignment, loosed faith in trust again, but thank God for one age He added...
MAY
Preparing of my single day without Mrs.Kartini, since June i would be alone in the secretariat section... Had alot fight wid sum1 i care so much... and feeling alone in this world,can't cry enough!
JUNE
The Real Lost of My Life.... cried, broke down, crashed,hurted, betrayed... Excelent!Yes, i cried all night long, "end of the world" seemed to be the perfect match for me that time... thank God i have my family, they helped me so hard to thru this agony... so i could faced the days ahead without asking God to take my soul...
JULY
Got into hospital cos couldn't breath at all, passout for 15 minutes, they thought they had lost me for gud... but i came back didn't i? My brain didn't get enough air and it made me passout and turn into blue... after that horrible experience at Emergency Room, when i opened my eyes i saw my cousin and said thank you to him, cos during my "other" place i only heard for his voice and it lead me to came back...
AUGUST
Tried to still stand on my feet, thank God i got all the works tobe done... no time for tears, no time to wiped, no time to suffer... works.. works.. works.. and i thought that one way to forget bad things... ^o^ and i tried to smile no matter how hard the situation was...alot of times i passed the days with the emptiness inside, i felt away from God, i felt He never took a side in me, i thought He didn't fair with me... Loosing my religion? Nope, i just asked HIM not let me go no matter how bad i was as HIS creation.. i asked God not to let me slip away from HIS Mighty Finger, cos i have nothing without HIM in my life...
In the midle of my sadness i saw you.. never thought you would filled my days ahead since that....
SEPTEMBER
Got nu friend, he's funny, always busy with his work ~i think..~,smart, have a heart of angel cos he always let me to bug him in the midle his busy day of work and yet no compliment from him..isn't that nice?,he's great guy, a gud friend,^o^ If you read this friend, "thank you for let me bug you, thank you for not make any compliment even my behaviour anoying you alot, so sorry for all the troubles and hard days i have given you lately, and i do use alot of my emotional side..what can i do i'm a writer :)... but promise you i would do the changes... and think logicaly and not so emotional about anything... Thank you for all the advise and consulting time you had given that day.. i do appriciated...Thank you..."
OCTOBER
Sometimes i felt i was a looser... but i decided to wash away all the negative thinking about my self or for what hapen, bad think hapen and also the gud thing... so be patience Vicky!
NOVEMBER
I miss my dad badly... i wished he'd been here beside me...
DECEMBER
X'Mas time has come... my past has come infront of me after i tried so hard to thru the day without him,now he stood there infront of me... without any feelings guilty... But this X'Mas i wana make a peaceful with my own self, during all the bad things and the day i lost my love one i only blame my self for what hapen... i wana make peaceful and forgiveness with my own self first... i don't know how and why but all i know i've got to find the peaceful for my self then i shud be able to forgive...
I started the Year with alot of prays and...feelings... a little hope that i would thru this year with happiness..
22 January was Elvina Ruth Wendelline Maulany day's birth, both mother and baby in gud shape...
FEBRUARY
The worst Valentine's Day ever... flood came to my grandma's house.. the worst one...
MARCH
Alot of B'day parties among family member... but what most greatful to The Lord was i stil could have my Mom beside me...
APRIL
Felt no breath... too much things hapens and i couldn't face them at once... but LIFE, it never thinks your strength, you just had to stood up there and faced all of them with the strength you've got!! Loosed my boss cos of her resignment, loosed faith in trust again, but thank God for one age He added...
MAY
Preparing of my single day without Mrs.Kartini, since June i would be alone in the secretariat section... Had alot fight wid sum1 i care so much... and feeling alone in this world,can't cry enough!
JUNE
The Real Lost of My Life.... cried, broke down, crashed,hurted, betrayed... Excelent!Yes, i cried all night long, "end of the world" seemed to be the perfect match for me that time... thank God i have my family, they helped me so hard to thru this agony... so i could faced the days ahead without asking God to take my soul...
JULY
Got into hospital cos couldn't breath at all, passout for 15 minutes, they thought they had lost me for gud... but i came back didn't i? My brain didn't get enough air and it made me passout and turn into blue... after that horrible experience at Emergency Room, when i opened my eyes i saw my cousin and said thank you to him, cos during my "other" place i only heard for his voice and it lead me to came back...
AUGUST
Tried to still stand on my feet, thank God i got all the works tobe done... no time for tears, no time to wiped, no time to suffer... works.. works.. works.. and i thought that one way to forget bad things... ^o^ and i tried to smile no matter how hard the situation was...alot of times i passed the days with the emptiness inside, i felt away from God, i felt He never took a side in me, i thought He didn't fair with me... Loosing my religion? Nope, i just asked HIM not let me go no matter how bad i was as HIS creation.. i asked God not to let me slip away from HIS Mighty Finger, cos i have nothing without HIM in my life...
In the midle of my sadness i saw you.. never thought you would filled my days ahead since that....
SEPTEMBER
Got nu friend, he's funny, always busy with his work ~i think..~,smart, have a heart of angel cos he always let me to bug him in the midle his busy day of work and yet no compliment from him..isn't that nice?,he's great guy, a gud friend,^o^ If you read this friend, "thank you for let me bug you, thank you for not make any compliment even my behaviour anoying you alot, so sorry for all the troubles and hard days i have given you lately, and i do use alot of my emotional side..what can i do i'm a writer :)... but promise you i would do the changes... and think logicaly and not so emotional about anything... Thank you for all the advise and consulting time you had given that day.. i do appriciated...Thank you..."
OCTOBER
Sometimes i felt i was a looser... but i decided to wash away all the negative thinking about my self or for what hapen, bad think hapen and also the gud thing... so be patience Vicky!
NOVEMBER
I miss my dad badly... i wished he'd been here beside me...
DECEMBER
X'Mas time has come... my past has come infront of me after i tried so hard to thru the day without him,now he stood there infront of me... without any feelings guilty... But this X'Mas i wana make a peaceful with my own self, during all the bad things and the day i lost my love one i only blame my self for what hapen... i wana make peaceful and forgiveness with my own self first... i don't know how and why but all i know i've got to find the peaceful for my self then i shud be able to forgive...
December 25, 2007
gud nite story tale...
"Gila...gw suka banged sama kamu...gw kangen bicara sama kamu, atau hanya mendengar ocehan kamu tentang hidup... and i never ever think you are that sucks dengan semua nasehat kamu...gw benar-benar suka kamu but kamu terlalu dingin, kamu terlalu acuh, and itu bukan salah kamu, it's my stupidity!"
it's not that easy being okay e'time i meet you or talking with you, i know it's not your fault at all, it's only foolish beat of my heart, my stupidity who let this feeling slip into my heart and let it grow up that fast... now i have to wash away this feeling so i don't have to loosing you bcos of that, now i just stay with the cloud of my feeling and let it go away to the sky of the dream...
now i have to wake up from the dreams and facing the reality... hoping sumday a knight with the shining armour will rescue me from all these feelings and free me from all these sadness and sorrows....
Sweet dreams my mysterious guy... always remember you in my pray....
it's not that easy being okay e'time i meet you or talking with you, i know it's not your fault at all, it's only foolish beat of my heart, my stupidity who let this feeling slip into my heart and let it grow up that fast... now i have to wash away this feeling so i don't have to loosing you bcos of that, now i just stay with the cloud of my feeling and let it go away to the sky of the dream...
now i have to wake up from the dreams and facing the reality... hoping sumday a knight with the shining armour will rescue me from all these feelings and free me from all these sadness and sorrows....
Sweet dreams my mysterious guy... always remember you in my pray....
December 23, 2007
Love such a....
"Do you know when you're gone you taking my world with you?
Do you know when you're gone you're taking away all the happines with you?
Do you know when you're gone you're taking away all my sunshine?..."
These are few of my feelings that i felt when i lost my love one... Falling in love, is it happines or another way to feel hurt?If that love things going smooth means Happines but when it's gone so wrong and away from what you're thingking then time tobe hurt!
I love watching people and listen for all their problems, and alot of those people, they're talking about love.. it's always about love...
I have few friends, some of them they have a wonderful marriage and honest to their spouse, some they're also marriage but they get infolved with "other person" in love things, they look so faithfull to each other spouse but in other hand they hide their little "cheat" story...
Some, they wana have a marriage but they don't meet the "right" person yet, and the others they're just stuck up in the midle of endless relationship....
So, what does Love have something to do with them?on that conditions i have mentioned what the truth of Love skin?Happiness, pretending, sadness or just a crap...
Since i was a teen, i felt i always falling in love with the wrong guy... and still! And somehow that thought create a bitter thing in my life... and my mind... i do everything just to make my self not get infolved with the wrong guy but some how it's all coming back to me now... and all i could say is "geee... vicks, get real... he's not for you, he's away from your wish..." Then how and what we should do to find our true love or what people know the most is "match"...
How we could have known if that person is the right one, someone that you will see in 50 yrs ahead, someone that you will see e'time you open your eyes and still you in love with that person no matter how bad the situation turn in, someone that you share e'thing and become your half soul in the world, someone that you would share laugh, tears, smile, sadness even the wrinkle skin has been see in his/her face, someone that you will see for the last time before the death close your eyes eternaly....
I always ask God to send and give me a soul mate that could bring me nearer to God, i ever love a guy and think he's the right one, he's so faithful in God, he seemed tobe the right guy who could take me nearer to God, until he left and change his faith that easily just for another woman!
Love hurts, Love happiness, Love gives you smile and joy and all the eximent in life, but it also could wrack you down, and brings sorrow to your soul which you never imagine before...
LOVE.. such a strange word ... but im glad i could feel Love inside my heart....
Do you know when you're gone you're taking away all the happines with you?
Do you know when you're gone you're taking away all my sunshine?..."
These are few of my feelings that i felt when i lost my love one... Falling in love, is it happines or another way to feel hurt?If that love things going smooth means Happines but when it's gone so wrong and away from what you're thingking then time tobe hurt!
I love watching people and listen for all their problems, and alot of those people, they're talking about love.. it's always about love...
I have few friends, some of them they have a wonderful marriage and honest to their spouse, some they're also marriage but they get infolved with "other person" in love things, they look so faithfull to each other spouse but in other hand they hide their little "cheat" story...
Some, they wana have a marriage but they don't meet the "right" person yet, and the others they're just stuck up in the midle of endless relationship....
So, what does Love have something to do with them?on that conditions i have mentioned what the truth of Love skin?Happiness, pretending, sadness or just a crap...
Since i was a teen, i felt i always falling in love with the wrong guy... and still! And somehow that thought create a bitter thing in my life... and my mind... i do everything just to make my self not get infolved with the wrong guy but some how it's all coming back to me now... and all i could say is "geee... vicks, get real... he's not for you, he's away from your wish..." Then how and what we should do to find our true love or what people know the most is "match"...
How we could have known if that person is the right one, someone that you will see in 50 yrs ahead, someone that you will see e'time you open your eyes and still you in love with that person no matter how bad the situation turn in, someone that you share e'thing and become your half soul in the world, someone that you would share laugh, tears, smile, sadness even the wrinkle skin has been see in his/her face, someone that you will see for the last time before the death close your eyes eternaly....
I always ask God to send and give me a soul mate that could bring me nearer to God, i ever love a guy and think he's the right one, he's so faithful in God, he seemed tobe the right guy who could take me nearer to God, until he left and change his faith that easily just for another woman!
Love hurts, Love happiness, Love gives you smile and joy and all the eximent in life, but it also could wrack you down, and brings sorrow to your soul which you never imagine before...
LOVE.. such a strange word ... but im glad i could feel Love inside my heart....
December 22, 2007
Message for The Stranger...
X'Mas is near, but you're so far away.. that's what i feel right now... people should happy during X'Mas moment but why i don't feel that way...
Tonight i don't know what to write down but in my heart and mind there's a lot of feelings i wana discribe thru the words...
Sometimes i feel i wana runaway from all these feelings, but sometimes i feel i wana near by you, talk with you, make jokes with you, hear your voice, listen all the words of you...
sometimes i decide not to pay attention with your present but in other time i hate when you say nothing at all seeing me...
Sometimes i wana hate you so i don't have to thinking about you but quitely i feel so missing you and just feel your present thru the wind and nights...
Sometimes i wana forget you for gud and make sure of my self that's the gud things i do then why i feel so terrible sad thinking about that...
X'Mas is near i should have felt happy about that...
Day by day i feel you're so far and far away, i don't know about that, dunno what to do, dunno what to say, i just sit and feel the lost i think... i dunno should i hold you from away or just let it you go...
but before you're leaving i just wana tell you i really greatfull for the day we met, i thank God for knowing you this far... sooner or later you'll be gone with the wind and nights, the only thing left just memories and your picture...
i will always take you in my heart, i will remember you e'time i breath and feels you with the blood in my body...
Tonight i don't know what to write down but in my heart and mind there's a lot of feelings i wana discribe thru the words...
Sometimes i feel i wana runaway from all these feelings, but sometimes i feel i wana near by you, talk with you, make jokes with you, hear your voice, listen all the words of you...
sometimes i decide not to pay attention with your present but in other time i hate when you say nothing at all seeing me...
Sometimes i wana hate you so i don't have to thinking about you but quitely i feel so missing you and just feel your present thru the wind and nights...
Sometimes i wana forget you for gud and make sure of my self that's the gud things i do then why i feel so terrible sad thinking about that...
X'Mas is near i should have felt happy about that...
Day by day i feel you're so far and far away, i don't know about that, dunno what to do, dunno what to say, i just sit and feel the lost i think... i dunno should i hold you from away or just let it you go...
but before you're leaving i just wana tell you i really greatfull for the day we met, i thank God for knowing you this far... sooner or later you'll be gone with the wind and nights, the only thing left just memories and your picture...
i will always take you in my heart, i will remember you e'time i breath and feels you with the blood in my body...
December 13, 2007
i miss you
i miss you...
realy do miss you...
i don't know what to do or said... i feel can't breath, sumthing that stuck in here...
i don't what is better, talking with you or just walk away slowly...and make a distance...
I miss you... you fill my mind, you run and run inside my head, don't you ever get tired at all?
i miss you... but i hate i can't be my own self infront of you....
i miss you... i miss talk to you, miss have fun times with you, miss everything about you...
i miss you... and this feeling makes me wana cry and also laughing in the same time...
i miss you... but i know im the only one who notice about this, cos im a great pretender...
i miss you...
realy do miss you...
i don't know what to do or said... i feel can't breath, sumthing that stuck in here...
i don't what is better, talking with you or just walk away slowly...and make a distance...
I miss you... you fill my mind, you run and run inside my head, don't you ever get tired at all?
i miss you... but i hate i can't be my own self infront of you....
i miss you... i miss talk to you, miss have fun times with you, miss everything about you...
i miss you... and this feeling makes me wana cry and also laughing in the same time...
i miss you... but i know im the only one who notice about this, cos im a great pretender...
i miss you...
December 10, 2007
You come just when i tried to runaway from feeling and emotion..
You come just when i didn't believe in love...
You come just when i decided to give up on this life
You come just when i closed the door of my heart so tight...
You come just when i loosed my faith in purity of trust...
You come with your spark inside your eyes,
You come with your deadly smile,
You come with all the kindness of your heart,
Now i speak only with silent language of my heart to you
Now i see you thru my closed heart
Now i feel you thru my lonely nights
Be gone... please away from me
Be gone... please don't let me filled my days with you
Be gone... please release me from this unconditional love
Be gone... please don't let me destroy all the gud things in you
Be gone... please let me sleep in the dreamland without you by my side....
You come just when i didn't believe in love...
You come just when i decided to give up on this life
You come just when i closed the door of my heart so tight...
You come just when i loosed my faith in purity of trust...
You come with your spark inside your eyes,
You come with your deadly smile,
You come with all the kindness of your heart,
Now i speak only with silent language of my heart to you
Now i see you thru my closed heart
Now i feel you thru my lonely nights
Be gone... please away from me
Be gone... please don't let me filled my days with you
Be gone... please release me from this unconditional love
Be gone... please don't let me destroy all the gud things in you
Be gone... please let me sleep in the dreamland without you by my side....
Happy times...Bad times....
“...yehe tere karam kabhi khushi kabhie gham, na joda ho ge hum kabhi khushi kabhie gham...” that's apart few lines of Hindi's movie Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham, even i don't know for sure the meaning of that words but it said about moment in sad and happy times...
Lately i keep listening that song, i don't know why but i just love the rhytm, the music and everytime i heard that song makes me remind every little time that i had spent in this world...every sad time, happy times, and also the people who get involved in it, then it realise me how much i shud greatful to The Lord for every breath He has given to me until now, not only that but also the laughter and the tears, and every people has come into my life...
Amazing, if you do the review about your life,many people come and go in your life, some bad some nice, bottom line whatever you're going thru happy times, sad times, their make your life coloured and cheers...
Fall in love,broken hearted, birth, dead, every moment that ever happen... tears, laughter, smile, anger,every feeling you have....
yehe tere karam kabhi khushi kabhie gham, na joda ho ge hum kabhi khushi kabhie gham!
Lately i keep listening that song, i don't know why but i just love the rhytm, the music and everytime i heard that song makes me remind every little time that i had spent in this world...every sad time, happy times, and also the people who get involved in it, then it realise me how much i shud greatful to The Lord for every breath He has given to me until now, not only that but also the laughter and the tears, and every people has come into my life...
Amazing, if you do the review about your life,many people come and go in your life, some bad some nice, bottom line whatever you're going thru happy times, sad times, their make your life coloured and cheers...
Fall in love,broken hearted, birth, dead, every moment that ever happen... tears, laughter, smile, anger,every feeling you have....
yehe tere karam kabhi khushi kabhie gham, na joda ho ge hum kabhi khushi kabhie gham!
December 6, 2007
It's hard...
It's so hard keep this feelings inside...
it's so hard can't take out loud about what you feel
it's so hard can't share this feelings to someone
it's hard staying in the silence of your own heart
it's hard making your self look okay while your heart beating so bad
it's hard keep the silence thru the days..
it's hard hiding what your heart has known
it's hard wrap your heart with the silence and pain
it's hard colored your days with your heart's tears
it's so hard to know that your dreams never come true...
it's so hard knowing let your love goes is the best thing to do...
but it's more hard when you don't know that you're gonna loose your dream
and it's more hard you could hug your love but not the heart...
it's so hard can't take out loud about what you feel
it's so hard can't share this feelings to someone
it's hard staying in the silence of your own heart
it's hard making your self look okay while your heart beating so bad
it's hard keep the silence thru the days..
it's hard hiding what your heart has known
it's hard wrap your heart with the silence and pain
it's hard colored your days with your heart's tears
it's so hard to know that your dreams never come true...
it's so hard knowing let your love goes is the best thing to do...
but it's more hard when you don't know that you're gonna loose your dream
and it's more hard you could hug your love but not the heart...
Heart Poetry
You come and now you go...just like that
You here and now you far away... just like that
You left only your image in my mind
You left and only left your memories in my days
I try to search you thru the winds and air
i try to find you in the whispers of night arms...
i try to hug you thru the shadows of the night wings..
Now im just sitting without you in my mind...
Shall i meet you once again...
only the winds have the answers...
You here and now you far away... just like that
You left only your image in my mind
You left and only left your memories in my days
I try to search you thru the winds and air
i try to find you in the whispers of night arms...
i try to hug you thru the shadows of the night wings..
Now im just sitting without you in my mind...
Shall i meet you once again...
only the winds have the answers...
A Message
"Aku mau mencintai kekurangan-mu..." means " I want to love your lack in your self..." Imagine if sum1 has told you that words.
Today i spent the day with thought in my mind that i might have made a mistake to someone that i care alot. That person did something that had made me "frozen" and the whole day i sat and thought what had i done this time... Was it my word, my behaviour my thought...my what.... but i also didn't sure was it caused by me?
Here, i was waiting for you, wonder where you were, what did you do, were you okay, were you busy, were you thinking about me...
Then i realise one word that ever said to me "There's not everything you think hapen that way..." then i forget you...trying to forget you.... and made my self so busy like hell.... just to wash away the picture of you...
So, wherever you are now, i just want you to know that you're in my thoughts....
Take care will you...
Today i spent the day with thought in my mind that i might have made a mistake to someone that i care alot. That person did something that had made me "frozen" and the whole day i sat and thought what had i done this time... Was it my word, my behaviour my thought...my what.... but i also didn't sure was it caused by me?
Here, i was waiting for you, wonder where you were, what did you do, were you okay, were you busy, were you thinking about me...
Then i realise one word that ever said to me "There's not everything you think hapen that way..." then i forget you...trying to forget you.... and made my self so busy like hell.... just to wash away the picture of you...
So, wherever you are now, i just want you to know that you're in my thoughts....
Take care will you...
December 2, 2007
Sunday's Activities ~ 02 Desember 2007~
06.30 : i woke up.. finaly after the alarm "bang" my head with its scream... hardly i opened my eyes, gee... it looked like i just closed my eyes, i went to sleep at 03.00 am this morning but i got to go to the church, i didn't wana be late...
07.15: 45 minutes more, got the cab and went to the church with my mom even my head still spin badly... but morning air refreshing my head a little bit...hhmmmm, this was God's bless, the sun, the air...the life :-)
08.05:Arrived at the chruch, the ceremony had begun...hiks... i heard the praise song had sang out... hurry up vicky... but i stoped my step and changed direction and i went to the sunday school, and brought my niece to there to get ceremony for her...
09.15: The ceremony had ended, prepared for the X'Mas meeting at 10.00 am, gave the last report of the X'Mas Event Plan... during the meeting i tried so hard to focus on the subject but hey.... what had hapen with my eyes.... ooaoaaahhhh.... sleepy head!
12.45: Finaly the meeting ended,ppffuuiihhh.... and got home! Arrived at home my uncle had been ready with his keyboard and the karaoke with live music played by him was begun ^o^ Corious who's the singer was? you looked at her :D nnaaa, kidding, not only me, there were also my aunies, my cousins, my grandma, and as fyi my family loves to sing... they sing alot of song... you name it...
21.45: Live Music had ended... until the next sunday :D time to get my bath... with warm water, peach body milk and bath foam, and my apple shampoo, i got my long nice bath tonight... so freshing...
23.05: Went to the cafe, checking my emails, writing my blogs, visit some of my friends Orkut profile......
00.30: i let you know when i finished.. ;P ~tobe continued~
ps: still can't take my mind of you....
07.15: 45 minutes more, got the cab and went to the church with my mom even my head still spin badly... but morning air refreshing my head a little bit...hhmmmm, this was God's bless, the sun, the air...the life :-)
08.05:Arrived at the chruch, the ceremony had begun...hiks... i heard the praise song had sang out... hurry up vicky... but i stoped my step and changed direction and i went to the sunday school, and brought my niece to there to get ceremony for her...
09.15: The ceremony had ended, prepared for the X'Mas meeting at 10.00 am, gave the last report of the X'Mas Event Plan... during the meeting i tried so hard to focus on the subject but hey.... what had hapen with my eyes.... ooaoaaahhhh.... sleepy head!
12.45: Finaly the meeting ended,ppffuuiihhh.... and got home! Arrived at home my uncle had been ready with his keyboard and the karaoke with live music played by him was begun ^o^ Corious who's the singer was? you looked at her :D nnaaa, kidding, not only me, there were also my aunies, my cousins, my grandma, and as fyi my family loves to sing... they sing alot of song... you name it...
21.45: Live Music had ended... until the next sunday :D time to get my bath... with warm water, peach body milk and bath foam, and my apple shampoo, i got my long nice bath tonight... so freshing...
23.05: Went to the cafe, checking my emails, writing my blogs, visit some of my friends Orkut profile......
00.30: i let you know when i finished.. ;P ~tobe continued~
ps: still can't take my mind of you....
December 1, 2007
Saturday Noon~Life home wroks part 2
Sitting down at my cozy office while every one has taking their weekly off.. kinda like this quite situation :) and my mind still filled with my chat with Jai y'day afternoon, and for the first time in my life,again i recall about what the exactly reason i want to have in my life, i stop thinking about it since i become dissapinted with life...
I forget that LIFE is God's bless for each of us, i forget that no matter how bitter the taste of your life gonna be,God still watching from above... i always think that i kept falling in love with the wrong guys and i think God doesn't care about it..at all! But i never see that God has always with me along my rebelation to HIM, He gave me strength thru my friends,HE always beside me when i'm alone thru the silence so i could hear HIS voice, still i never realise that... i ask The Lord to guide my foot step but i'm not willing to move my feet....
I don't know where to start finding those answers of my life, but with God beside me i'm sure He could provide me with all those answers... Just have faith in HIM Vicky...faith... that's all you need to find those 4 answers of your life home works...
I forget that LIFE is God's bless for each of us, i forget that no matter how bitter the taste of your life gonna be,God still watching from above... i always think that i kept falling in love with the wrong guys and i think God doesn't care about it..at all! But i never see that God has always with me along my rebelation to HIM, He gave me strength thru my friends,HE always beside me when i'm alone thru the silence so i could hear HIS voice, still i never realise that... i ask The Lord to guide my foot step but i'm not willing to move my feet....
I don't know where to start finding those answers of my life, but with God beside me i'm sure He could provide me with all those answers... Just have faith in HIM Vicky...faith... that's all you need to find those 4 answers of your life home works...
November 30, 2007
Life home work
1) What do i want to become in Life
2) What is my short term goals
3)What is my long term goals
4) How can i earn more money
There are my Life home work from now on... i shud have find the answers for all of them, i dunno where do i start and how.... i never think about those things, i was enjoy greaving bcoz the lost, until Jai asked me those questions, and i never think it would come out from Jai..
I never think much of life since i lost my lovely one, i just live along by the "river", i live bcoz God let me, i stop and idle...
But what Jai said this afternoon, they're right, hard but right...
I should move on and leave all behind.... it's hard Jai but im gonna try to do it and find all those 4 answers...
dedicated for Jaikumar "thank you...."
2) What is my short term goals
3)What is my long term goals
4) How can i earn more money
There are my Life home work from now on... i shud have find the answers for all of them, i dunno where do i start and how.... i never think about those things, i was enjoy greaving bcoz the lost, until Jai asked me those questions, and i never think it would come out from Jai..
I never think much of life since i lost my lovely one, i just live along by the "river", i live bcoz God let me, i stop and idle...
But what Jai said this afternoon, they're right, hard but right...
I should move on and leave all behind.... it's hard Jai but im gonna try to do it and find all those 4 answers...
dedicated for Jaikumar "thank you...."
Weekend's Review
MONDAY
Got fever...bad one, so i had to banged the office... at noon i had a date with my friend to Bekasi, Skin Clinic.. Talked alot about anything, including you...!!
TUESDAY
Finaly back to work, alot of things to do, alot of papers, mail and messages. One of my friend ping me at Gtalk and he was really pisted coz i didn't tell him about my illness ~so sweet of you..but sorry~ I think i missed you that day but i didn't want to spoil this crush things...scared me to death... :-)
WEDNESDAY
Wednesday Slow Machine...one of my fave broadcast in the radio, they played easy listening song for the whole day...cool!! But my mind was bugging by your image... i didn't know what hapen with me..i think something has wrong...
THURSDAY
"How does one walk away from all of the memories, how do i not wants you here in my arms.. how can i not love you..."
FRIDAY
Weekend..TGIF! Has decided got to leave from all these feelings... it isn't right and imposible.... i have to move on with my life and carry on... i won't be noticed, and everything would be fine... i just got to go from this situation before it more deeper and worst... everyhting would be okay Vicky!
Got fever...bad one, so i had to banged the office... at noon i had a date with my friend to Bekasi, Skin Clinic.. Talked alot about anything, including you...!!
TUESDAY
Finaly back to work, alot of things to do, alot of papers, mail and messages. One of my friend ping me at Gtalk and he was really pisted coz i didn't tell him about my illness ~so sweet of you..but sorry~ I think i missed you that day but i didn't want to spoil this crush things...scared me to death... :-)
WEDNESDAY
Wednesday Slow Machine...one of my fave broadcast in the radio, they played easy listening song for the whole day...cool!! But my mind was bugging by your image... i didn't know what hapen with me..i think something has wrong...
THURSDAY
"How does one walk away from all of the memories, how do i not wants you here in my arms.. how can i not love you..."
FRIDAY
Weekend..TGIF! Has decided got to leave from all these feelings... it isn't right and imposible.... i have to move on with my life and carry on... i won't be noticed, and everything would be fine... i just got to go from this situation before it more deeper and worst... everyhting would be okay Vicky!
November 29, 2007
Being alone
Being alone isn't that bad, being alone isn't that terrible, being alone isn't that saddy... To me i prefer stay alone instead of i love sum1 with a doubt inside that questioned would he/she be the perfect one or the right one?
Or loving sum1 else just another wayout to make my heart forget the past and washed them up...we can't erase the memories, bad or gud... nothing we could do to remove the moment that ever hapen in our life, right? Then is it wise to let sum1 who loves you become your heart victim to run away from the past?
I don't know which one is better, let sum1 strange loving you and have the future together or let the times preparing your heart for love....
Sometime when the night comes and the dark cover my world, i could sence the loneliness, they like angels wings that wrap my heart with tears and silence...and when the agony of being alone has strucked my heart i just sat there and lifted up my heart into My Lord presence and soon He send His angels to companing me to thru the night....
Being alone... it's not that bad as you think of....
Or loving sum1 else just another wayout to make my heart forget the past and washed them up...we can't erase the memories, bad or gud... nothing we could do to remove the moment that ever hapen in our life, right? Then is it wise to let sum1 who loves you become your heart victim to run away from the past?
I don't know which one is better, let sum1 strange loving you and have the future together or let the times preparing your heart for love....
Sometime when the night comes and the dark cover my world, i could sence the loneliness, they like angels wings that wrap my heart with tears and silence...and when the agony of being alone has strucked my heart i just sat there and lifted up my heart into My Lord presence and soon He send His angels to companing me to thru the night....
Being alone... it's not that bad as you think of....
Love is friendship
Subject of my month "Is it impossible fall in love with someone that you hardly know about that person?", i don't believe in that but then i realise i do have experience with that, i have fallen in love with a guy that i only met once, well maybe not falling in love but it's kinda crush.... a big crush :-)
he never do the sweet talk, i could talk about anything with him...anything except his feeling, and he's so cold as an ice berg...that's it an ice berg... but he's such a gentleman, so wonderful as a friend... Alot of gals desperated tobe his gal but he's just stay calm and do nothing... don't ever let him smile, geee... with smile like that many hearts would be broken...
I didn't know what make me begining to like him (and developing into LOVE), i didn't know anything about him except the common information, his religion, his work..and that's all i know...nothing more...until now...
Everytime i talk with him, there's a magnet that shuck me up into his presence, and it's begining scared me badly...his silence, his style, his laugh, his voice,hiscold...avevrything in him turns me on...
But after i have many chats with him, i realise one thing that would not match between me and him, he could love someone that strange to him and i can't...
I also ask my other friend about this, and yes he's a guy, funny for him it's possible too having that spark of love to sum1 strange too,my gosh..men...~only God knows how~ but still for me being love with the strange only make your separated come sooner, how can we stand up into the ground that not strength enough to build sumthing on it, just like A house with sand as the basic between A house with rock as the basic...which one do you think is more strength, so is LOVE and friendship... Pyaar Dosti...Love is Friendship...
he never do the sweet talk, i could talk about anything with him...anything except his feeling, and he's so cold as an ice berg...that's it an ice berg... but he's such a gentleman, so wonderful as a friend... Alot of gals desperated tobe his gal but he's just stay calm and do nothing... don't ever let him smile, geee... with smile like that many hearts would be broken...
I didn't know what make me begining to like him (and developing into LOVE), i didn't know anything about him except the common information, his religion, his work..and that's all i know...nothing more...until now...
Everytime i talk with him, there's a magnet that shuck me up into his presence, and it's begining scared me badly...his silence, his style, his laugh, his voice,hiscold...avevrything in him turns me on...
But after i have many chats with him, i realise one thing that would not match between me and him, he could love someone that strange to him and i can't...
I also ask my other friend about this, and yes he's a guy, funny for him it's possible too having that spark of love to sum1 strange too,my gosh..men...~only God knows how~ but still for me being love with the strange only make your separated come sooner, how can we stand up into the ground that not strength enough to build sumthing on it, just like A house with sand as the basic between A house with rock as the basic...which one do you think is more strength, so is LOVE and friendship... Pyaar Dosti...Love is Friendship...
November 27, 2007
First Time
First time I saw you I couldn’t take my eyes of you,
First time I saw you was your big bright eyes,
First time I saw you there’s something filled my heart,
First time I saw you I couldn’t stop my heart from beating so hard,
First time I saw you I’d like to know all about that cute smile of yours,
First time I saw you no word came out from my mouth..only the silence…
First time I saw you you brought me into this strange feelings,
First time I saw you you filled my heart with your charmed
First time I saw you the only thing you left behind was memories about you..
First time I saw you was your big bright eyes,
First time I saw you there’s something filled my heart,
First time I saw you I couldn’t stop my heart from beating so hard,
First time I saw you I’d like to know all about that cute smile of yours,
First time I saw you no word came out from my mouth..only the silence…
First time I saw you you brought me into this strange feelings,
First time I saw you you filled my heart with your charmed
First time I saw you the only thing you left behind was memories about you..
Five things that tell about me
Yesterday I visited a friend’s blog and he gave me this idea to write down…
i)MOODY, this is the strongest charateristic you’re gonna find if you knew me.This has been with me since I was a kid…teenage tobe exact!Easily got changed out of the blue.A lot of my friends has complained about this bad habits of me.I don’t know how to get away of it, just follow of my heart sayin’ that time…
ii)STUBBORN, Taurus gal’s type ^o^ sumtimes I think my head is made from stone, I hardly listen what people advise me, I just follow my heart only. And if I wanna do sumthingor make a decision, I just do it!If there a lot of people didn’t agree so beat it,I just did it quietly..A lot of time I had to deal with my own concequences bcoz of this character.
iii)COMPLICATED, im kind a “plin plan” person, you know like this, when I decided about sumthing then in a sec I could change my decition just like that… My family and friends really…really hate this one character of mine, I hate it my self! Right now im trying to change that… I don’t understand why I have changed in the last minutes of my decision..
iv)CARRYING FRIEND, A lot of my friends have admit that. If I get closed with sum1, I could notice the little tiny of their changes, and I could notice my friend also only from the way their speak.. Sumtimes I could read my friend’s mind before they speak up. Im gud listener that what they said about me…
v)CLOSED PERSONALITY, yup…that’s me! I have a lot of best friends but only one person who know the real story about me.And we hardly meet each other, we just communicate from phone. But I do have a lot of friends to hang around with, we talk a lot of anything, hang out together, do all the close friends stuff do, but still there’s a close area part of me that I don’t talk about. Even we're so close doesn’t mean I could talk a lot about my heart and stuff in it, and I think this chcaracter doesn’t match with my title as a gud friend, does it? I thought so…
i)MOODY, this is the strongest charateristic you’re gonna find if you knew me.This has been with me since I was a kid…teenage tobe exact!Easily got changed out of the blue.A lot of my friends has complained about this bad habits of me.I don’t know how to get away of it, just follow of my heart sayin’ that time…
ii)STUBBORN, Taurus gal’s type ^o^ sumtimes I think my head is made from stone, I hardly listen what people advise me, I just follow my heart only. And if I wanna do sumthingor make a decision, I just do it!If there a lot of people didn’t agree so beat it,I just did it quietly..A lot of time I had to deal with my own concequences bcoz of this character.
iii)COMPLICATED, im kind a “plin plan” person, you know like this, when I decided about sumthing then in a sec I could change my decition just like that… My family and friends really…really hate this one character of mine, I hate it my self! Right now im trying to change that… I don’t understand why I have changed in the last minutes of my decision..
iv)CARRYING FRIEND, A lot of my friends have admit that. If I get closed with sum1, I could notice the little tiny of their changes, and I could notice my friend also only from the way their speak.. Sumtimes I could read my friend’s mind before they speak up. Im gud listener that what they said about me…
v)CLOSED PERSONALITY, yup…that’s me! I have a lot of best friends but only one person who know the real story about me.And we hardly meet each other, we just communicate from phone. But I do have a lot of friends to hang around with, we talk a lot of anything, hang out together, do all the close friends stuff do, but still there’s a close area part of me that I don’t talk about. Even we're so close doesn’t mean I could talk a lot about my heart and stuff in it, and I think this chcaracter doesn’t match with my title as a gud friend, does it? I thought so…
November 19, 2007
i'd like to
You may not care to me, and consider im not there..
But it won't change the way i feelings about you...
I sure you that one day all will happen that you would loving me and never let me go...
i'd like to be there for you, i'd like to love your lack, always willing to make you happy no matter what happen..i sure you im there...
You may keep a distance from me but i believe that you will loving me and never let me go...
i'd like to be there for you, i'd like to love your lack, i am who willing to get hurted for the past...
But it won't change the way i feelings about you...
I sure you that one day all will happen that you would loving me and never let me go...
i'd like to be there for you, i'd like to love your lack, always willing to make you happy no matter what happen..i sure you im there...
You may keep a distance from me but i believe that you will loving me and never let me go...
i'd like to be there for you, i'd like to love your lack, i am who willing to get hurted for the past...
October 29, 2007
TUHAN berkata
Engkau tidak perlu menjadi orang pandai untuk menyenangkanKu;
Cukuplah dengan kau ingin mengasihiKu.
Berbicaralah kepadaKu seperti kepada seseorang yang
sangat kau sukai.
Adakah orang-orang yang ingin engkau doakan..
Sebutkan nama-nama mereka kepadaKu, dan mintalah
dariKu sebanyak yang engkau mau.
Aku ini murah hati dan mengetahui semua kebutuhan
mereka, tetapi Aku ingin engkau menunjukkan kasihmu
kepada mereka dan kepadaKu dengan mempercayai Akuuntuk melakukan apa yang Kutahu yang terbaik.
Katakan padaKu tentang si miskin, si sakit danorang-orang berdosa, dan jika engkau kehilangan persahabatan atau kasih sayang dengan siapapun,
Katakan juga kepadaKu......
Adakah sesuatu yang kau inginkan untuk jiwamu?Jika engkau mau, engkau dapat menuliskan semua kebutuhanmu dalam sebuah daftar yang panjang, lalu kemarilah dan bacakan kepadaKu.
Katakan saja padaKu tentang kesombonganmu, sifatmu yang mudah tersinggung, keakuanmu, kejahatanmu dan kemalasanmu.
Jangan malu; ada banyak orang Kudus di surga yang
telah melakukan kesalahan-kesalahan yang sama; mereka berdoa kepadaKu dan, sedikit demi sedikit,kesalahan-kesalahan mereka itu diperbaiki.
Jangan terburu-buru memintaKu untuk memberkati tubuh
dan pikiran; kesehatan, daya pikir, keberhasilan. Aku dapat memberikan segalanya dan Aku akan selalu memberikan segala yang dibutuhkan untuk membuat
jiwa-jiwa lebih kudus.
Apa yang kau inginkan hari ini ? Katakanlah padaKu, sebab Aku menanti-nantikan untuk melakukan kebaikan bagimu. Apakah rencana-rencanamu? Ceritakanlah padaKu.
Adakah seseorang yang ingin kau senangkan hatinya? Apa yang kau inginkan terjadi untuk mereka?Dan tidakkah engkau ingin melakukan sesuatu untukKu? Tidakkah engkau ingin melakukan sedikit kebaikan
Untuk jiwa teman-temanmu yang mungkin telah melupakanKu?
Katakanlah kepadaKu tentang kegagalan-kegagalan mu,
dan Aku akan menunjukkan kepadamu penyebabnya.
Apakah kekhawatiranmu? ??? Siapakah yang telah menyakitimu? ???
Katakanlah kepadaKu, dan sertakan juga bahwa engkau
akan memaafkan dan melupakan, dan Aku akan memberkatimu.
Apakah engkau takut akan sesuatu? Apakah engkau menyimpan ketakutan-ketakutan yang tidakberalasan dan menyiksa? Percayakan dirimu kepadaKu. Aku ada disini. Aku melihat segala sesuatu. Aku tidak akan meninggalkanmu.
Tidak adakah sukacita yang dapat engkau ceritakankepadaKu? Mengapa engkau tidak berbagi kebahagiaanmu denganKu? Katakanlah kepadaKu apa yang telah terjadi sejak
kemarin yang membuatmu merasa senang dan tenang. Apapun itu, betapapun besarnya, betapapun kecilnya,aku telah menyiapkannya. Tunjukkanlah kepadaKu penghargaanmu dan berterimakasihlah kepadaKu.
Apakah engkau menetapkan hati untuk tidak jatuh dalam
percobaan? Apakah engkau sudah menetapkan keputusanmu tentang
buku-buku dan pergaulan yang buruk? Semua hal itu merusak kedamaian jiwamu.
Akankah engkau bersikap baik kepada orang yang telah
menyakitimu itu?
Sekarang, teruslah berjalan. Teruslah bekerja.
Teruslah berusaha dan
Jadilah orang yang lebih tenang,
lebih rendah hati, lebih taat, lebih murah hati;
dan kembalilah segera dan bawalah padaKu hati yang lebih berserah.
Aku menyediakan bagimu lebih banyak berkat.
Inilah kasih itu: Bukan kita yang telah mengasihi Allah,
tetapi Allah yang telah mengasihi.
HiS LoVe hAs NO ENDING............
Engkau tidak perlu menjadi orang pandai untuk menyenangkanKu;
Cukuplah dengan kau ingin mengasihiKu.
Berbicaralah kepadaKu seperti kepada seseorang yang
sangat kau sukai.
Adakah orang-orang yang ingin engkau doakan..
Sebutkan nama-nama mereka kepadaKu, dan mintalah
dariKu sebanyak yang engkau mau.
Aku ini murah hati dan mengetahui semua kebutuhan
mereka, tetapi Aku ingin engkau menunjukkan kasihmu
kepada mereka dan kepadaKu dengan mempercayai Akuuntuk melakukan apa yang Kutahu yang terbaik.
Katakan padaKu tentang si miskin, si sakit danorang-orang berdosa, dan jika engkau kehilangan persahabatan atau kasih sayang dengan siapapun,
Katakan juga kepadaKu......
Adakah sesuatu yang kau inginkan untuk jiwamu?Jika engkau mau, engkau dapat menuliskan semua kebutuhanmu dalam sebuah daftar yang panjang, lalu kemarilah dan bacakan kepadaKu.
Katakan saja padaKu tentang kesombonganmu, sifatmu yang mudah tersinggung, keakuanmu, kejahatanmu dan kemalasanmu.
Jangan malu; ada banyak orang Kudus di surga yang
telah melakukan kesalahan-kesalahan yang sama; mereka berdoa kepadaKu dan, sedikit demi sedikit,kesalahan-kesalahan mereka itu diperbaiki.
Jangan terburu-buru memintaKu untuk memberkati tubuh
dan pikiran; kesehatan, daya pikir, keberhasilan. Aku dapat memberikan segalanya dan Aku akan selalu memberikan segala yang dibutuhkan untuk membuat
jiwa-jiwa lebih kudus.
Apa yang kau inginkan hari ini ? Katakanlah padaKu, sebab Aku menanti-nantikan untuk melakukan kebaikan bagimu. Apakah rencana-rencanamu? Ceritakanlah padaKu.
Adakah seseorang yang ingin kau senangkan hatinya? Apa yang kau inginkan terjadi untuk mereka?Dan tidakkah engkau ingin melakukan sesuatu untukKu? Tidakkah engkau ingin melakukan sedikit kebaikan
Untuk jiwa teman-temanmu yang mungkin telah melupakanKu?
Katakanlah kepadaKu tentang kegagalan-kegagalan mu,
dan Aku akan menunjukkan kepadamu penyebabnya.
Apakah kekhawatiranmu? ??? Siapakah yang telah menyakitimu? ???
Katakanlah kepadaKu, dan sertakan juga bahwa engkau
akan memaafkan dan melupakan, dan Aku akan memberkatimu.
Apakah engkau takut akan sesuatu? Apakah engkau menyimpan ketakutan-ketakutan yang tidakberalasan dan menyiksa? Percayakan dirimu kepadaKu. Aku ada disini. Aku melihat segala sesuatu. Aku tidak akan meninggalkanmu.
Tidak adakah sukacita yang dapat engkau ceritakankepadaKu? Mengapa engkau tidak berbagi kebahagiaanmu denganKu? Katakanlah kepadaKu apa yang telah terjadi sejak
kemarin yang membuatmu merasa senang dan tenang. Apapun itu, betapapun besarnya, betapapun kecilnya,aku telah menyiapkannya. Tunjukkanlah kepadaKu penghargaanmu dan berterimakasihlah kepadaKu.
Apakah engkau menetapkan hati untuk tidak jatuh dalam
percobaan? Apakah engkau sudah menetapkan keputusanmu tentang
buku-buku dan pergaulan yang buruk? Semua hal itu merusak kedamaian jiwamu.
Akankah engkau bersikap baik kepada orang yang telah
menyakitimu itu?
Sekarang, teruslah berjalan. Teruslah bekerja.
Teruslah berusaha dan
Jadilah orang yang lebih tenang,
lebih rendah hati, lebih taat, lebih murah hati;
dan kembalilah segera dan bawalah padaKu hati yang lebih berserah.
Aku menyediakan bagimu lebih banyak berkat.
Inilah kasih itu: Bukan kita yang telah mengasihi Allah,
tetapi Allah yang telah mengasihi.
HiS LoVe hAs NO ENDING............
October 26, 2007
Hubungan tanpa Status, Mau?
Hubungan Tanpa Status...
semakin hari semakin menjadi trend di kalangan pasangan di dunia mana saja. Entah dampak keberuntungan dari hubungan ini lebih banyak di rasakan oleh pihak cowo ataukah pihak wanita, atau mungkin memberi keberuntungan bagi kedua pihak. Satu sisi hubungan ini memberi kenyamanan bagi mereka yang tidak mau ter-ikat dengan persyaratan dari sebuah hubungan namun di satu sisi yang lain memberi coreng bagi mereka yang bersungguh2 dalam membina sebuah hubungan yang bermuara ke wadah pernikahan.
HTS demikian sebutan ini semakin santer dikalangan pasangan yang merasa lebih baik berhubungan hanya sekedar untuk mencari kesenangan dalam pengisi waktu luang atau bagi mereka yang merasakan kepahitan dari suatu hubungan yang serius. Tiada tuntutan kesetiaan yang diajukan dari HTS ini, tiada persyaratan sebagai seorang pasangan yang baik ataupun keharusan menjaga perasaan satu sama lain. Fenomena ini semakin hari semakin di gemari lebih dari "tinggal bersama" atau yang kerap kita sebut "kumpul kebo". Ke-excite-an nya pun lebih terasa lebih hebat dari hubungan manapun.
Mulanya aku tidak pernah mengerti mengapa ada pasangan yang mau menjalankan hubungan seperti ini, namun setelah aku terjun ke dalam-nya, tersemat kenikmatan dari hubungan tersebut ~im not talking about sex~ dimana kita menjalankan hubungan ini tanpa ada "beban" di pundak yang layaknya kita rasakan dan mungkin sekaligus tuntutan bagi kita untuk menjadi "pasangan yang baik", tak ada keharusan kita menjadi pasangan yang baik, tidak adanya tuntutan kita harus menjaga perasaan pasangan kita, tidak adanya ke"munafik"an kita sebagai pasangan yang setia "till death do us apart", semua kita jalankan dengan kesadaran penuh akan siapa kita dan siapa pasangan kita, kita dapat melanjutkan kapan saja kita ingin meneruskan atau kapan saja kita ingin menghentikan hubungan itu, tiada tuntutan!! Pertanyaan-nya samapai kapan kita akan melakukan hal tersebut, sampai kapan kita akan siap akan keseriusan akan sebuah hubungan? Kita tidak hidup untuk selamanya,dan kita tidak selalu muda!apakah akan kita habiskan masa terakhir kita di dunia dengan seorang diri, ataukah kita akan menutup mata dengan di temani oleh seseorang yang tetap memberikan hati dan hidupnya bagi kita tidak peduli sekeriput apakah kulit kita nantinya....Jawab itu ada pada kita...
Hubungan Tanpa Status, Mau?
semakin hari semakin menjadi trend di kalangan pasangan di dunia mana saja. Entah dampak keberuntungan dari hubungan ini lebih banyak di rasakan oleh pihak cowo ataukah pihak wanita, atau mungkin memberi keberuntungan bagi kedua pihak. Satu sisi hubungan ini memberi kenyamanan bagi mereka yang tidak mau ter-ikat dengan persyaratan dari sebuah hubungan namun di satu sisi yang lain memberi coreng bagi mereka yang bersungguh2 dalam membina sebuah hubungan yang bermuara ke wadah pernikahan.
HTS demikian sebutan ini semakin santer dikalangan pasangan yang merasa lebih baik berhubungan hanya sekedar untuk mencari kesenangan dalam pengisi waktu luang atau bagi mereka yang merasakan kepahitan dari suatu hubungan yang serius. Tiada tuntutan kesetiaan yang diajukan dari HTS ini, tiada persyaratan sebagai seorang pasangan yang baik ataupun keharusan menjaga perasaan satu sama lain. Fenomena ini semakin hari semakin di gemari lebih dari "tinggal bersama" atau yang kerap kita sebut "kumpul kebo". Ke-excite-an nya pun lebih terasa lebih hebat dari hubungan manapun.
Mulanya aku tidak pernah mengerti mengapa ada pasangan yang mau menjalankan hubungan seperti ini, namun setelah aku terjun ke dalam-nya, tersemat kenikmatan dari hubungan tersebut ~im not talking about sex~ dimana kita menjalankan hubungan ini tanpa ada "beban" di pundak yang layaknya kita rasakan dan mungkin sekaligus tuntutan bagi kita untuk menjadi "pasangan yang baik", tak ada keharusan kita menjadi pasangan yang baik, tidak adanya tuntutan kita harus menjaga perasaan pasangan kita, tidak adanya ke"munafik"an kita sebagai pasangan yang setia "till death do us apart", semua kita jalankan dengan kesadaran penuh akan siapa kita dan siapa pasangan kita, kita dapat melanjutkan kapan saja kita ingin meneruskan atau kapan saja kita ingin menghentikan hubungan itu, tiada tuntutan!! Pertanyaan-nya samapai kapan kita akan melakukan hal tersebut, sampai kapan kita akan siap akan keseriusan akan sebuah hubungan? Kita tidak hidup untuk selamanya,dan kita tidak selalu muda!apakah akan kita habiskan masa terakhir kita di dunia dengan seorang diri, ataukah kita akan menutup mata dengan di temani oleh seseorang yang tetap memberikan hati dan hidupnya bagi kita tidak peduli sekeriput apakah kulit kita nantinya....Jawab itu ada pada kita...
Hubungan Tanpa Status, Mau?
October 25, 2007
my aunty..
Aku hanya mengenalnya hanya sejak aku kecil sebagai kaka dari mama-ku. Senyum-nya yang ramah sikapnya yang tegas dan sedikit keras terhadap anak-anak dan suami membuat aku berpikir seperti apakah rasanya hidup bersamanya. Aku tidaklah terlalu dekat padanya,namun dari semua keluarga dari pihak mama-ku beliau adalah yang paling dekat dengan kami...aku biasa memanggilnya Ai. Dia adalah seorang pengajar bahasa mandarin di sebuah klenteng di daerah Pasuruan. Melihat sosok seorang Ai aku selalu berpikir dia pasti hidup dalam suasana yang keras yang membuatnya menjadi demikian keras baik dalam sikap dan cara berpikir. Dan every time she smile she reminds me of my mom,they have that similiar smiling :)
Last time i met my aunty about 2years ago i think when i went to Surabaya for her third daughter's weds. She really a gud host, she brought us to many places and she always put a smile everytime she met people , no matter what her heart situation was...and that's the best part i saw in her self as my aunty.The difference between us and her is only our faith in God.For me she's realy a carrying and lovable aunty, she always compliment me and said how beauty i was,everytime i met her she always said that...
Now, she's lying there at the hospital becos of her ill,she's just there,stay calm,no moves at all...and when the doctors said can't handle again and just waiting for the miracle from God,i just wonder and pray,"would you give that miracle,God?" what would she see in "there", will she meet God,will she meet angels....wouls her find her way to God....
gee... all the sudden my tears fallen... i don't know why i sad, then i realise we're going to miss sum1 if we know we won't meet that person again.....ever! all the sudden there's so many words we wanna say, many stories we'd like to tell and many memories we'd like to share..but it's to late, the moment has come..no time left...
So, i think it's better say what you wana say to sum1, don't wait until tomrrow what you can do today, if tomorrow never comes you'll gonna regret it for the rest of your days...
Last time i met my aunty about 2years ago i think when i went to Surabaya for her third daughter's weds. She really a gud host, she brought us to many places and she always put a smile everytime she met people , no matter what her heart situation was...and that's the best part i saw in her self as my aunty.The difference between us and her is only our faith in God.For me she's realy a carrying and lovable aunty, she always compliment me and said how beauty i was,everytime i met her she always said that...
Now, she's lying there at the hospital becos of her ill,she's just there,stay calm,no moves at all...and when the doctors said can't handle again and just waiting for the miracle from God,i just wonder and pray,"would you give that miracle,God?" what would she see in "there", will she meet God,will she meet angels....wouls her find her way to God....
gee... all the sudden my tears fallen... i don't know why i sad, then i realise we're going to miss sum1 if we know we won't meet that person again.....ever! all the sudden there's so many words we wanna say, many stories we'd like to tell and many memories we'd like to share..but it's to late, the moment has come..no time left...
So, i think it's better say what you wana say to sum1, don't wait until tomrrow what you can do today, if tomorrow never comes you'll gonna regret it for the rest of your days...
October 23, 2007
Sedetik Waktu
Sedetik waktu saat aku melihat kehadiranmu..,
Sedetik waktu saat aku melihat senyum di wajah-mu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku merasakan dirimu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku merasakan lembut bibirmu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku sadar menyayangimu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku melihat kepergianmu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku kehilangan mu,
Sedetik waktu kini aku mengenangmu,
Sedetik waktu kini aku bersamamu,
Sedetik waktu tersisa untuk-ku,
Sedetik waktu…
Sedetik waktu saat aku melihat senyum di wajah-mu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku merasakan dirimu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku merasakan lembut bibirmu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku sadar menyayangimu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku melihat kepergianmu,
Sedetik waktu saat aku kehilangan mu,
Sedetik waktu kini aku mengenangmu,
Sedetik waktu kini aku bersamamu,
Sedetik waktu tersisa untuk-ku,
Sedetik waktu…
10 Ways Living Hapily Ever After
1. Don’t Worry : worryness is the caused our activities and mind not work propertly…
2. Don’t let unreasonable woryness take control on your life…
3. Don’t Save any revenge
4. Finish your problem one by one
5. Don’t bring your problem into your bed
6. Stay away from other people problems
7. Don’t live at the past
8. Be A Good Listener
9. Don’t let any frustation wrack and control your life
10. Count your bless
2. Don’t let unreasonable woryness take control on your life…
3. Don’t Save any revenge
4. Finish your problem one by one
5. Don’t bring your problem into your bed
6. Stay away from other people problems
7. Don’t live at the past
8. Be A Good Listener
9. Don’t let any frustation wrack and control your life
10. Count your bless
October 19, 2007
01) What's worse; A one night standor a bad relationship?
Bad Relationship for sure!
02) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
to forgive.
03) Can men and women be just friends?
of course, why not!
04) Dating co-workers?
hhmmm...
05) All expenses paid, vacation to where?
Switzerland!
06) Is flirting cheating?
for me, yuppp!!
07) Would you rather have 1 greatfriend or 5 pals?
definitely 1-great-friend!
08) Would you be ok with your significant other being friends with other guys/girls?
well...
09) Do you squeeze toothpaste from the middle or the end?
the end
10 ) Do you believe in angels?
angels and demons ;p
11) Have you ever flirted withsomeone you had no interest in?
absolutely NO! how can it be hapen...
12) Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?
i'll do that if i meet Denzel Washington
13.) If you could play any sport professionally, what would it be?
swim... i always wana do that...
14) Ever break up with someone and regret it?
like Selly said, "Regret first...Thank God now..."
15) Are you a jealous person?
Basicly...aren't we?
16 ) Would you ever have plasticsurgery?
no, im perfect!
17) Who has the sexiest accent?
Jaikumar... ever heard on the phone several times ^o^ don't be mad at me Jai :)
18) Are you a beach, county or city person?
a beach person ;p
19) Are you currently working at a job that you hate?
of course NOT
20) Have you and your friends ever gotten a piercing at a piercing party?
i got piercing by my own..
21) Would you ever attend a piercing party if asked?
not interesting
22) Would you consider yourself adventurous?
im homy type
23) Would you sing karaoke in front of friends?
absolutely...have no shame about that :)
24) Ever skip school and spent the day at the beach?
at the airport tobe exact
25) When you marry, will you wear black?
i prefer white, idiot!
26) Have you ever sat and hoped for a phone call?
infact right now i feel that way...poor me...
27) Did you ever smoke in the bathroom at school?
i smoked every where in the school
~adopted from Seli's Blogs @FS~
Bad Relationship for sure!
02) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
to forgive.
03) Can men and women be just friends?
of course, why not!
04) Dating co-workers?
hhmmm...
05) All expenses paid, vacation to where?
Switzerland!
06) Is flirting cheating?
for me, yuppp!!
07) Would you rather have 1 greatfriend or 5 pals?
definitely 1-great-friend!
08) Would you be ok with your significant other being friends with other guys/girls?
well...
09) Do you squeeze toothpaste from the middle or the end?
the end
10 ) Do you believe in angels?
angels and demons ;p
11) Have you ever flirted withsomeone you had no interest in?
absolutely NO! how can it be hapen...
12) Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?
i'll do that if i meet Denzel Washington
13.) If you could play any sport professionally, what would it be?
swim... i always wana do that...
14) Ever break up with someone and regret it?
like Selly said, "Regret first...Thank God now..."
15) Are you a jealous person?
Basicly...aren't we?
16 ) Would you ever have plasticsurgery?
no, im perfect!
17) Who has the sexiest accent?
Jaikumar... ever heard on the phone several times ^o^ don't be mad at me Jai :)
18) Are you a beach, county or city person?
a beach person ;p
19) Are you currently working at a job that you hate?
of course NOT
20) Have you and your friends ever gotten a piercing at a piercing party?
i got piercing by my own..
21) Would you ever attend a piercing party if asked?
not interesting
22) Would you consider yourself adventurous?
im homy type
23) Would you sing karaoke in front of friends?
absolutely...have no shame about that :)
24) Ever skip school and spent the day at the beach?
at the airport tobe exact
25) When you marry, will you wear black?
i prefer white, idiot!
26) Have you ever sat and hoped for a phone call?
infact right now i feel that way...poor me...
27) Did you ever smoke in the bathroom at school?
i smoked every where in the school
~adopted from Seli's Blogs @FS~
October 18, 2007
Soulmate
Soulmate,
catatan yang tertinggal untuk seseorang yang pernah aku rasakan sebagai soulmate ku, hingga karena kekecewaan membuat kita menjadi jauh hingga saat ini...
aku mungkin bukan sosok yang terbaik untuk dirimu, aku mungkin bukan yang patut engkau hadirkan dalam hidupmu namun kita pernah punya kisah,kisah yang sempat menghadirkan rasa sayang dalam hati ku meski tiada pernah ku perkirakan...awalnya kita hanya fooling around, dan engkau hanya mencoba-coba,namun tanpa kita sadari kisah itu berkanjut meski tanpa alur...
kehadiranmu membawa aku ke dalam mimpi lainnya, mimpi yang membuat aku tak ingin terbangun, mimpi yang aku kisahkan kepada sosok ayah disaat dia berjuang untuk satu tarikan napas kala sakitnya membawa dia kepada Sang Pencipta...dan engkaulah mimpi itu...
Soulmate,demikian sering ku sebut dirimu dan kita hanya tertawa...kita tersenyum..seakan kata itu tiada pernah ada artinya, setidaknya untuk kamu...biar saja...semua yang aku rasa aku simpan dalam hatiku Soulmate...
Soulmate,
terima kasih untuk cerita dan kisah kita, meski hanya sepenggal jiwa namun semua itu membawa arti yang terdalam....maaf atas perubahan kita, maaf atas ulah diam ku, maaf atas semua luka yang pernah aku torehkan hanya karena rasa pengkhianatan dari mu, maaf atas ketidak mampuan ku menjaga kisah kita berdua....
aku pergi...
catatan yang tertinggal untuk seseorang yang pernah aku rasakan sebagai soulmate ku, hingga karena kekecewaan membuat kita menjadi jauh hingga saat ini...
aku mungkin bukan sosok yang terbaik untuk dirimu, aku mungkin bukan yang patut engkau hadirkan dalam hidupmu namun kita pernah punya kisah,kisah yang sempat menghadirkan rasa sayang dalam hati ku meski tiada pernah ku perkirakan...awalnya kita hanya fooling around, dan engkau hanya mencoba-coba,namun tanpa kita sadari kisah itu berkanjut meski tanpa alur...
kehadiranmu membawa aku ke dalam mimpi lainnya, mimpi yang membuat aku tak ingin terbangun, mimpi yang aku kisahkan kepada sosok ayah disaat dia berjuang untuk satu tarikan napas kala sakitnya membawa dia kepada Sang Pencipta...dan engkaulah mimpi itu...
Soulmate,demikian sering ku sebut dirimu dan kita hanya tertawa...kita tersenyum..seakan kata itu tiada pernah ada artinya, setidaknya untuk kamu...biar saja...semua yang aku rasa aku simpan dalam hatiku Soulmate...
Soulmate,
terima kasih untuk cerita dan kisah kita, meski hanya sepenggal jiwa namun semua itu membawa arti yang terdalam....maaf atas perubahan kita, maaf atas ulah diam ku, maaf atas semua luka yang pernah aku torehkan hanya karena rasa pengkhianatan dari mu, maaf atas ketidak mampuan ku menjaga kisah kita berdua....
aku pergi...
Kupejamkan mata ini
Mencoba tuk melupakan
Segala kenangan indah tentang dirimu
Tentang Mimpiku
Semakin aku mencoba
Bayangmu semakin nyata
Merasuk hingga ke jiwaTuhan tolonglah diriku
Chorus:
Entah dimana dirimu berada
Hampa terasa hidupku tanpa dirimu
Apakah di sana kau rindukan aku
Seperti diriku yang selalu merindukanmu
Selalu merindukanmu ....
Tak bisa aku ingkari
Engkaulah satu-satunya
Yang bisa membuat jiwaku
Yang pernah mati menjadi berarti
Namun kini kau menghilang
Bagaikan di telan bumi
Tak penahkah kau sadari
Arti cintamu untukku ~ by Ari Lasso~
gw pernah mem-post lagu ini, ga tau napa gw demen banged sama ini lagu,mungkin krn apa yg tertera dalam tiap baitnya mewakili perasaan gw yg paling dalam..bahkan setiap untai kata-katanya! sering gw berpikir untuk apa kita jatuh cinta bila akhirnya akan ada perpisahan, entah karena pengkhianatan, ketidakcocokan/perbedaan, atau yang paling klise karena kematian "till death do us apart"... semua itu sama saja akan menimbulkan luka jiwa yang dalam...
merindukan dan membenci seseorang sama perihnya, kedua rasa itu hanya dipisahkan oleh batas setipis sutra, yang dapat menyayat setiap jengkal hati dan jiwa..... mencintai dan kehilangan seseorang yang ber-arti memiliki rasa perih yang sama...
Mencoba tuk melupakan
Segala kenangan indah tentang dirimu
Tentang Mimpiku
Semakin aku mencoba
Bayangmu semakin nyata
Merasuk hingga ke jiwaTuhan tolonglah diriku
Chorus:
Entah dimana dirimu berada
Hampa terasa hidupku tanpa dirimu
Apakah di sana kau rindukan aku
Seperti diriku yang selalu merindukanmu
Selalu merindukanmu ....
Tak bisa aku ingkari
Engkaulah satu-satunya
Yang bisa membuat jiwaku
Yang pernah mati menjadi berarti
Namun kini kau menghilang
Bagaikan di telan bumi
Tak penahkah kau sadari
Arti cintamu untukku ~ by Ari Lasso~
gw pernah mem-post lagu ini, ga tau napa gw demen banged sama ini lagu,mungkin krn apa yg tertera dalam tiap baitnya mewakili perasaan gw yg paling dalam..bahkan setiap untai kata-katanya! sering gw berpikir untuk apa kita jatuh cinta bila akhirnya akan ada perpisahan, entah karena pengkhianatan, ketidakcocokan/perbedaan, atau yang paling klise karena kematian "till death do us apart"... semua itu sama saja akan menimbulkan luka jiwa yang dalam...
merindukan dan membenci seseorang sama perihnya, kedua rasa itu hanya dipisahkan oleh batas setipis sutra, yang dapat menyayat setiap jengkal hati dan jiwa..... mencintai dan kehilangan seseorang yang ber-arti memiliki rasa perih yang sama...
in memoriam of ivan
finding you in my life was the greatest bless that ever happened in my soul page..
only cold walls and silence of the night become the witness when we're union our heart and love..
night had become companion when our lips met and dreams become reality
loving you coloured my days with your presence
you took me to the joyful soul
you're my prince,you're my soul
you painted my heart with smile and happiness
you brought my soul to the beauty of you
you filled up my emptiness with your tender care, laughed adn your joy..
you're my soul, you're my breath
blessed the day that i found you...
only cold walls and silence of the night become the witness when we're union our heart and love..
night had become companion when our lips met and dreams become reality
loving you coloured my days with your presence
you took me to the joyful soul
you're my prince,you're my soul
you painted my heart with smile and happiness
you brought my soul to the beauty of you
you filled up my emptiness with your tender care, laughed adn your joy..
you're my soul, you're my breath
blessed the day that i found you...
i thank God
I thank God for today that i have gone thru..
I thank God for every storm in my life,
I thank God for every tears in my days,
I thank God for every smile thru the presence of friends..
I thank God for every bless i'd received into my life...
I thank God for being my Holly Creator...
I thank God for every storm in my life,
I thank God for every tears in my days,
I thank God for every smile thru the presence of friends..
I thank God for every bless i'd received into my life...
I thank God for being my Holly Creator...
About you
First time i saw you,
tought you're the most concieted person ever...
first time i knew you,
i never realise your presence..
as time goes time and time passing by slowly, reflection of yourself more perceptible,
and begin to make a clolour in my daily life..
Now knowing you, world seems more cheerful with a lot of words that come from your eyes
Now knowing you, there's a peacefulness that fullfill my lonely heart
tought you're the most concieted person ever...
first time i knew you,
i never realise your presence..
as time goes time and time passing by slowly, reflection of yourself more perceptible,
and begin to make a clolour in my daily life..
Now knowing you, world seems more cheerful with a lot of words that come from your eyes
Now knowing you, there's a peacefulness that fullfill my lonely heart
tentang mu
Pertama melihatmu,
ku rasa engkau sosok terangkuh,
pertama mengenalmu,
tak ku sadar akan kehadiranmu...
seiring masa berganti dan waktu bergulir pelan
nyata kehadiran dirimu semakin terasa,mulai menoktahkan
warna dalam keseharianku..
kini mengenalmu, dunia terasa ceria
dengan banyak kata yang hadir melalui sorot matamu,
kini mengenalmu, ada rasa damai dan tenang
yang hadir memenuhi kesunyian hati ini...
ku rasa engkau sosok terangkuh,
pertama mengenalmu,
tak ku sadar akan kehadiranmu...
seiring masa berganti dan waktu bergulir pelan
nyata kehadiran dirimu semakin terasa,mulai menoktahkan
warna dalam keseharianku..
kini mengenalmu, dunia terasa ceria
dengan banyak kata yang hadir melalui sorot matamu,
kini mengenalmu, ada rasa damai dan tenang
yang hadir memenuhi kesunyian hati ini...
October 4, 2007
Rasa ini - by The Titans
...terlalu lama kau jauh hingga waktu pasti kan berlalu
Kini kau pergi tinggalkanku di saat aku terbenam sepi
kau, kau telah pergi
tinggalkan aku dalam perih mimpi - mimpi
Yang tak mungkin kembalisaat kau dan aku
saling memiliki
rasa ini tak mungkin bisa ku ungkap lagi
berakhir rasa yang kumiliki
Satu cinta, aku...
Kini kau pergi tinggalkanku di saat aku terbenam sepi
kau, kau telah pergi
tinggalkan aku dalam perih mimpi - mimpi
Yang tak mungkin kembalisaat kau dan aku
saling memiliki
rasa ini tak mungkin bisa ku ungkap lagi
berakhir rasa yang kumiliki
Satu cinta, aku...
Cerita Indah Namun Tiada Abadi
Semua terjalin indah saat kisah tercipta diantara kita
hari-hari diwarnai dengan bunga cinta serta semerbak harumnya memenuhi udara tempat kita bersama..
menyentuhmu... mencintaimu...mencium-mu...semua terasa indah saat kisah kita terbina,
hingga ku lihat ada yang lain dibinar dua bola matamu...
selubung misteri yang membungkus kisah kita perlahan merubah semua keindahan menjadi airmata...
mimpi indah menjadi suatu kengerian akan kehilangan dirimu...
Mencintaimu menjadi suatu duka dan luka yang menganga yang siap menghempas aku dan mimpiku dalam satu jalinan kisah yang salah...
Merindukanmu menjadi sebuah belati yang merobek kedalaman hatiku..
Mimpi itu sudah usai, yang tersisa hanya sebuah kisah tiada akhir
bagai jurang kelam yang merentangkan kedua tangannya untuk memeluk diriku dan kisah indahku..
hari-hari diwarnai dengan bunga cinta serta semerbak harumnya memenuhi udara tempat kita bersama..
menyentuhmu... mencintaimu...mencium-mu...semua terasa indah saat kisah kita terbina,
hingga ku lihat ada yang lain dibinar dua bola matamu...
selubung misteri yang membungkus kisah kita perlahan merubah semua keindahan menjadi airmata...
mimpi indah menjadi suatu kengerian akan kehilangan dirimu...
Mencintaimu menjadi suatu duka dan luka yang menganga yang siap menghempas aku dan mimpiku dalam satu jalinan kisah yang salah...
Merindukanmu menjadi sebuah belati yang merobek kedalaman hatiku..
Mimpi itu sudah usai, yang tersisa hanya sebuah kisah tiada akhir
bagai jurang kelam yang merentangkan kedua tangannya untuk memeluk diriku dan kisah indahku..
Atas Nama CINTA
Masih lekat di benak-ku saat-saat kita bersama
masih lekat di benak-ku tawa renyah dirimu yang memberi ceria dunia
masih lekat di benak-ku rajukan manja darimu
aku tersenyum saat mengingat semua itu...
Namun,
kini engkau ada dijauh sana
meninggalkan kisah tentang kita
kau hempas semua keindahan masa kita bersama
kau isi semua hari-hariku dengan dusta manismu...
kau sodorkan jadam kehidupan terbungkus madu pengkhiantan
atas nama Cinta begitu engkau menyebutnya,
atas nama Cinta kau ciptakan chemistry itu dalam menghapusku
atas nama Cinta kau benarkan luka menganga mengisi relung jiwaku...
masih lekat di benak-ku tawa renyah dirimu yang memberi ceria dunia
masih lekat di benak-ku rajukan manja darimu
aku tersenyum saat mengingat semua itu...
Namun,
kini engkau ada dijauh sana
meninggalkan kisah tentang kita
kau hempas semua keindahan masa kita bersama
kau isi semua hari-hariku dengan dusta manismu...
kau sodorkan jadam kehidupan terbungkus madu pengkhiantan
atas nama Cinta begitu engkau menyebutnya,
atas nama Cinta kau ciptakan chemistry itu dalam menghapusku
atas nama Cinta kau benarkan luka menganga mengisi relung jiwaku...
28 Januari 1998
Menemukan dirimu dalam hidupku adalah anugrah terindah yang terjadi dalam lembar jiwaku..
meski hanya disaksikan oleh dinding beku dan sunyi malam, aku dan engkau memadukan hati dan cinta kita...
Meski hanya malam yang menemani saat bibir kita bertemu namun semua menjadi mimpi yang menjadi nyata..
Mencintai-mu...mewarnai hari-hari ku dengan keindahan hadirmu,
kau bawaku dalam keceriaan jiwa
engkau pangeranku, engkau jiwaku
kau lukis hari dan hatiku dengan warna indah dirimu
kau isi kekosonganku dengan tawa dan ceriamu
engkau jiwaku...engkau naafasku
diberkatilah hari dimana aku menemukanmu...
meski hanya disaksikan oleh dinding beku dan sunyi malam, aku dan engkau memadukan hati dan cinta kita...
Meski hanya malam yang menemani saat bibir kita bertemu namun semua menjadi mimpi yang menjadi nyata..
Mencintai-mu...mewarnai hari-hari ku dengan keindahan hadirmu,
kau bawaku dalam keceriaan jiwa
engkau pangeranku, engkau jiwaku
kau lukis hari dan hatiku dengan warna indah dirimu
kau isi kekosonganku dengan tawa dan ceriamu
engkau jiwaku...engkau naafasku
diberkatilah hari dimana aku menemukanmu...
October 2, 2007
setengah hati
tertegun ku memandangmu
saat kau tinggalkanku .. menangis
bodohnya ku mengharapmu
jelas sudah tak kau pedulikan cintaku
mestinya telah kusadari
betapa perih cinta tanpa balasmu
harusnya tak kupaksakan
bila akhirnya kan melukaiku
mungkin ku tak akan bisa jadikan dirimu kekasih
yang seutuhnya mencintaiku
namun kurelakan diri
jika hanya setengah hati
kau sejukkan jiwa ini
ku hanya terus berharap
satu hari kau mampu .. sadari
tiada yang pernah mengerti
sepertiku setulus hati mencintaimu
mungkin ku tak akan bisa jadikan dirimu kekasih
yang seutuhnya mencintaiku
namun kurelakan diri
jika hanya setengah hati
kau sejukkan jiwa ini
saat kau tinggalkanku .. menangis
bodohnya ku mengharapmu
jelas sudah tak kau pedulikan cintaku
mestinya telah kusadari
betapa perih cinta tanpa balasmu
harusnya tak kupaksakan
bila akhirnya kan melukaiku
mungkin ku tak akan bisa jadikan dirimu kekasih
yang seutuhnya mencintaiku
namun kurelakan diri
jika hanya setengah hati
kau sejukkan jiwa ini
ku hanya terus berharap
satu hari kau mampu .. sadari
tiada yang pernah mengerti
sepertiku setulus hati mencintaimu
mungkin ku tak akan bisa jadikan dirimu kekasih
yang seutuhnya mencintaiku
namun kurelakan diri
jika hanya setengah hati
kau sejukkan jiwa ini
Kisah Yang Salah
akhirnya kita ada
di akhir yang menyakitkan
kusadar kita telah melangkah
terlalu dalam...sadari bahwa kita
sudah taklukkan terlarang
tak mungkin ku perjuangkan cintayang kita mulai dengan salah
aku tak mampu untuk menyimpan
rahasia kisah kita...tahukah kamu batinku tersiksa
saat harus selalu... berdusta
di dalam sebuah kisah yang salah
simpanlah kisah tersembunyi ini
maafkan kisah kita harus berakhir disini
aku tak mampu untuk menyimpan
rahasia kisah kita...tahukah kamu batinku tersiksa
saat harus selalu... berdusta
di dalam sebuah kisah yang salah
di akhir yang menyakitkan
kusadar kita telah melangkah
terlalu dalam...sadari bahwa kita
sudah taklukkan terlarang
tak mungkin ku perjuangkan cintayang kita mulai dengan salah
aku tak mampu untuk menyimpan
rahasia kisah kita...tahukah kamu batinku tersiksa
saat harus selalu... berdusta
di dalam sebuah kisah yang salah
simpanlah kisah tersembunyi ini
maafkan kisah kita harus berakhir disini
aku tak mampu untuk menyimpan
rahasia kisah kita...tahukah kamu batinku tersiksa
saat harus selalu... berdusta
di dalam sebuah kisah yang salah
Sebelum Cahaya
ku teringat hati
yang bertabur mimpi
kemana kau pergi cinta
perjalanan sunyi
engkau tempuh sendiri
kuatkanlah hati cinta
ingatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
kekuatan hati yang berpegang janji
genggamlah tanganku cintaku tak akan pergi meninggalkanmu sendiri
temani hatimu cintai
ngatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
ku teringat hati
yang bertabur mimpi
kemana kau pergi cinta
perjalanan sunyi
engkau tempuh sendiri
kuatkanlah hati cinta
ingatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
ingatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
kan membelaimu cinta...
yang bertabur mimpi
kemana kau pergi cinta
perjalanan sunyi
engkau tempuh sendiri
kuatkanlah hati cinta
ingatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
kekuatan hati yang berpegang janji
genggamlah tanganku cintaku tak akan pergi meninggalkanmu sendiri
temani hatimu cintai
ngatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
ku teringat hati
yang bertabur mimpi
kemana kau pergi cinta
perjalanan sunyi
engkau tempuh sendiri
kuatkanlah hati cinta
ingatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
ingatkan engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu cinta
kan membelaimu cinta...
Bersama Bintang
senja kini berganti malam
menutup hari yg lelah
dimanakah engkau berada
aku tak tahu dimana
pernah kita lalui semua
jerit, tangis, canda, tawa
kini hanya untaian kata
hanya itulah yg aku punya
reff:tidurlah selamat malam
lupakan sajalah aku
mimpilah dalam tidurmu
bersama bintang
sesungguhnya aku tak bisa
jalani waktu tanpamu
perpisahan bukanlah duka
meski harus menyisakan luka
menutup hari yg lelah
dimanakah engkau berada
aku tak tahu dimana
pernah kita lalui semua
jerit, tangis, canda, tawa
kini hanya untaian kata
hanya itulah yg aku punya
reff:tidurlah selamat malam
lupakan sajalah aku
mimpilah dalam tidurmu
bersama bintang
sesungguhnya aku tak bisa
jalani waktu tanpamu
perpisahan bukanlah duka
meski harus menyisakan luka
September 26, 2007
Kidung Malam
Malam ini sunyi menjadi temanku
Dengan jari jemarinya ia menggenggam tanganku..
Keheningan sang malam menemaniku untuk tersenyum bersama
Dihiburnya hatiku lewat bintang dan sinar bulan
Dinyanyikannya kidung temaram untuk menyemarakan jiwa duka ku…
Malam ini kehampaan memeluk erat tubuh jiwaku
Diselimutinya hatiku dengan kekosongan rasa, dan
Dibungkusnya batinku dengan diam malam…
Ingin aku terbang bersamamu Sang Malam,
Bermain dan bersuka dilangit sana..warna kelammu tidaklah menakutiku
Karena disana ribuansinar bintang yang seperti kunang-kunang akan menjadi lentera yang menerangi taman langit tempat kita bersuka…
Kini hatiku tidaklah sendiri
Kini jiwaku tidaklah terbelenggu duka
Sayap malam telah membawa kedamaian dalam diamnya yang panjang…
Dengan jari jemarinya ia menggenggam tanganku..
Keheningan sang malam menemaniku untuk tersenyum bersama
Dihiburnya hatiku lewat bintang dan sinar bulan
Dinyanyikannya kidung temaram untuk menyemarakan jiwa duka ku…
Malam ini kehampaan memeluk erat tubuh jiwaku
Diselimutinya hatiku dengan kekosongan rasa, dan
Dibungkusnya batinku dengan diam malam…
Ingin aku terbang bersamamu Sang Malam,
Bermain dan bersuka dilangit sana..warna kelammu tidaklah menakutiku
Karena disana ribuansinar bintang yang seperti kunang-kunang akan menjadi lentera yang menerangi taman langit tempat kita bersuka…
Kini hatiku tidaklah sendiri
Kini jiwaku tidaklah terbelenggu duka
Sayap malam telah membawa kedamaian dalam diamnya yang panjang…
Song of The Night
Tonight silent has become my friend
His fingers grips my hand tightly..
Silent night has company me smile together
My heart has been cheer up thru the stars and shinning of the moon…
Tonight emptiness hugs my body soul so tight…
Covered my heart with the taste of vain
And wraped my secret with silence…
I want to fly with you, Thee of the night..
Playing and cheering in the sky faraway.. your darkness colour doesn’t frighten me
Coz there are thousand ray of the stars like fire flies which become a lantern that shines on garden of the sky,places we’re having joy…
Now my heart is alone no more..
Now my soul has shackled from sadness no more..
Wing of the nights has brought me a long peace in his silent…
His fingers grips my hand tightly..
Silent night has company me smile together
My heart has been cheer up thru the stars and shinning of the moon…
Tonight emptiness hugs my body soul so tight…
Covered my heart with the taste of vain
And wraped my secret with silence…
I want to fly with you, Thee of the night..
Playing and cheering in the sky faraway.. your darkness colour doesn’t frighten me
Coz there are thousand ray of the stars like fire flies which become a lantern that shines on garden of the sky,places we’re having joy…
Now my heart is alone no more..
Now my soul has shackled from sadness no more..
Wing of the nights has brought me a long peace in his silent…
September 24, 2007
After Hours ~ 20 September 2007~
16.00 : End of the busy day
16.15 : Planed to window shoping at MAG with my pal
16.10 : got stuck with traffic jam..gee.. and we thought we had taken the wrong public transportation route
17.10 : still waiting at the bus..no movement at all, we’re starting feel upset but hei..let’s smile instead of put that horrible faces…
17.15 : we decided to take a walk and found another route..
17.00 : thank GOD.. finaly MAG here we’re…
18.00 : starting our shopping journey,1st visited New Zealand Ice Cream…yummy ^o^ I had chillo with capucino flavoure, my friend took sundae special choccolatte and whipped cream, then we went to hokben to have our dinner… after that we looked around the mall while we’re talking a lot about anything,work,friends and most of all guy :P
20.00 :ooppss…time had passed by so fast,didin’t realize..we went back and waited for my ride to come home
20.30 : still waiting…didn’t catch my bus..hiks…
21.30 :finally,my bus here…it’s realing getting late..pssttt I felt afraid thou..
22.30 :Home sweet home..took a nice bath and slept….zzzzz
16.15 : Planed to window shoping at MAG with my pal
16.10 : got stuck with traffic jam..gee.. and we thought we had taken the wrong public transportation route
17.10 : still waiting at the bus..no movement at all, we’re starting feel upset but hei..let’s smile instead of put that horrible faces…
17.15 : we decided to take a walk and found another route..
17.00 : thank GOD.. finaly MAG here we’re…
18.00 : starting our shopping journey,1st visited New Zealand Ice Cream…yummy ^o^ I had chillo with capucino flavoure, my friend took sundae special choccolatte and whipped cream, then we went to hokben to have our dinner… after that we looked around the mall while we’re talking a lot about anything,work,friends and most of all guy :P
20.00 :ooppss…time had passed by so fast,didin’t realize..we went back and waited for my ride to come home
20.30 : still waiting…didn’t catch my bus..hiks…
21.30 :finally,my bus here…it’s realing getting late..pssttt I felt afraid thou..
22.30 :Home sweet home..took a nice bath and slept….zzzzz
September 17, 2007
sahabat...
untaian hari yang ku lewati tidak akan indah tanpa kehadiran-mu..
lagu yang dinyanyikan tidak semerdu suara saat engkau menasehati ataupun menegurku
tawamu lebih indah dari warna pelangi yang menghias awan diatas sana...
sahabat...
trima kasih ku untuk kehadiranmu dalam warna lembar hidupku,
trima kasih ku untuk menemaniku mesq hanya dalam diam,
trima kasih ku untuk airmata yang dicurahkan guna mengusir kesedihanku...
sahabat...
maafkan ketidak mampuanku mengerti mu
maafkan kata-kata yang terlontar menyakitimu
maafkan untuk luka yang tertoreh karena kebodohan ku...
untaian hari yang ku lewati tidak akan indah tanpa kehadiran-mu..
lagu yang dinyanyikan tidak semerdu suara saat engkau menasehati ataupun menegurku
tawamu lebih indah dari warna pelangi yang menghias awan diatas sana...
sahabat...
trima kasih ku untuk kehadiranmu dalam warna lembar hidupku,
trima kasih ku untuk menemaniku mesq hanya dalam diam,
trima kasih ku untuk airmata yang dicurahkan guna mengusir kesedihanku...
sahabat...
maafkan ketidak mampuanku mengerti mu
maafkan kata-kata yang terlontar menyakitimu
maafkan untuk luka yang tertoreh karena kebodohan ku...
"your mouth become your tiger!" that's the quote i have heard all this week, but without i notice it become sumthing that hit and teach me the really meaning of TRUST. Sometimes we forget or just never realise that our words we'd spoken as a sight or even just a unburden heart to sum1 we trust could become a time bomb which blow and destroy not only your self but other people also...
Nothing wrong having a best friend, but have u ever thought what if sumday you and your best friend had a fight or a difference opinion about sumthing,what if your best friend or sum1 you love has betrayed you, is it a wise if we need other people to share or it's better we keep silence and speak nothing... even that kills you inside...
Few days ago my best friend said i was a good pal, but now we just a stranger to each other... she said we never understand e'other and it's better we spread out...
she accept no explanation... she heard nothing...
then i think what should a best friend do? What is a best friend?does best friend have a fight?
am i a gud best friend if i could understand her/him without she/he do the same...?
Can such that thing make a gud relationship between two persons called best friend..?
I have no answers...
Nothing wrong having a best friend, but have u ever thought what if sumday you and your best friend had a fight or a difference opinion about sumthing,what if your best friend or sum1 you love has betrayed you, is it a wise if we need other people to share or it's better we keep silence and speak nothing... even that kills you inside...
Few days ago my best friend said i was a good pal, but now we just a stranger to each other... she said we never understand e'other and it's better we spread out...
she accept no explanation... she heard nothing...
then i think what should a best friend do? What is a best friend?does best friend have a fight?
am i a gud best friend if i could understand her/him without she/he do the same...?
Can such that thing make a gud relationship between two persons called best friend..?
I have no answers...
September 13, 2007
All about friendship ~Kahlil Gibran~
AND a youth said, Speak to us of Friendship.
And he answered, saying:Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with loveand reap with thanksgiving.A
nd he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger,and you seek him for peace.
When your friend speaks his mind youfear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor
do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceasesnot to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, allthoughts, all desires, all expectations are bornand shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, yougrieve not;
For that which you love most in him maybe clearer in his absence, as the mountainto the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friend-ship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the dis-closure of its own mystery is not love buta net cast forth: and only the unprofitableis caught.
And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide,let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you shouldseek him with hours to kill?Seek him always with hours to live.For it is his to fill your need, but notyour emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship letthere be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heartfinds its morning and is refreshed.
And he answered, saying:Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with loveand reap with thanksgiving.A
nd he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger,and you seek him for peace.
When your friend speaks his mind youfear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor
do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceasesnot to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, allthoughts, all desires, all expectations are bornand shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, yougrieve not;
For that which you love most in him maybe clearer in his absence, as the mountainto the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friend-ship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the dis-closure of its own mystery is not love buta net cast forth: and only the unprofitableis caught.
And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide,let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you shouldseek him with hours to kill?Seek him always with hours to live.For it is his to fill your need, but notyour emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship letthere be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heartfinds its morning and is refreshed.
September 10, 2007
"making a choice" is the free will that God has given to us.. having that special right, sumtimes makes us forget how special we are to The Almighty. We use that special right without demand and we use it with our capability as human.
A Lot of times we make the wrong choices and thought that was the right amswer for our life.. we never realise at all that God has beautiful plans for our life. And when e'thing turms bad we blame God for letting us made the mistakes...
we use to hurt HIM with our stupidness, our ego,oue desires and yet we think we're right..
we blind our eyes from God's plan and deff our ears from God's voices, we only listen for our self voices. We never realise the free will that God has given is His way to make us come to HIM. Cos He knows the worls's problem iss too bigger for us..for human...that's why He'd like to stay with us and help us out, but we keep make a distance with God..
Free Will... that what God's promise us even HE cries when HE see us runaway from His side....
A Lot of times we make the wrong choices and thought that was the right amswer for our life.. we never realise at all that God has beautiful plans for our life. And when e'thing turms bad we blame God for letting us made the mistakes...
we use to hurt HIM with our stupidness, our ego,oue desires and yet we think we're right..
we blind our eyes from God's plan and deff our ears from God's voices, we only listen for our self voices. We never realise the free will that God has given is His way to make us come to HIM. Cos He knows the worls's problem iss too bigger for us..for human...that's why He'd like to stay with us and help us out, but we keep make a distance with God..
Free Will... that what God's promise us even HE cries when HE see us runaway from His side....
Bapa,demikian Engkau layakan ku menyebut kehadiranMu, demikian Engkau bolehkan ku memanggilMu, demikian Engkau angkatku menjadi bagian diriMu...
Bapa,
bagai anal yang memberontak demikian adanya keberadaan jiwaku, meronta...berlari...bersembunyi dari kasihMu,disaat jiwa kehilangan pengertian akan cinta tulus-Mu...
Bapa,
kembali ku mohon kehadiran-Mu, disaat jiwa berkelana menjauh dari hadap-Mu... Jangan Kau tinggalkan diriku lewati hari-hari dengan sendu...
Bapa,
bagai anal yang memberontak demikian adanya keberadaan jiwaku, meronta...berlari...bersembunyi dari kasihMu,disaat jiwa kehilangan pengertian akan cinta tulus-Mu...
Bapa,
kembali ku mohon kehadiran-Mu, disaat jiwa berkelana menjauh dari hadap-Mu... Jangan Kau tinggalkan diriku lewati hari-hari dengan sendu...
September 3, 2007
Selamat Malam ....
Selamat malam duka...selamat bersua lagi...
tak jemukah engkau datang menjumpaiku, tak bosankah engkau akan pertemuan ini, tak inginkah engkau memeluk yang lain?....
Selamat malam air mata,sudah tibakah dirimu...
belum lama kita bertemu kini engkau hadir disini, begitu dalam rasa rindumu untuk menemaniku dan menghias malam hariku... bersama-sama....
Selamat malam kesunyian, hadirmu menambah warna dalam hatiku, senyap yang engkau ciptakan,bak lagu malam merdu mengantar tidur kelam ku....
Selamat malam semua, kini kita sudah bersama... mari kita hiasai gelap malam dengan kehadiran kita, hingga sang malam tidaklah terlalu bersedih.....
tak jemukah engkau datang menjumpaiku, tak bosankah engkau akan pertemuan ini, tak inginkah engkau memeluk yang lain?....
Selamat malam air mata,sudah tibakah dirimu...
belum lama kita bertemu kini engkau hadir disini, begitu dalam rasa rindumu untuk menemaniku dan menghias malam hariku... bersama-sama....
Selamat malam kesunyian, hadirmu menambah warna dalam hatiku, senyap yang engkau ciptakan,bak lagu malam merdu mengantar tidur kelam ku....
Selamat malam semua, kini kita sudah bersama... mari kita hiasai gelap malam dengan kehadiran kita, hingga sang malam tidaklah terlalu bersedih.....
Jakarta, Kp.Melayu 19.30
Aku duduk dalam sudut sunyi hatiku, mengingat kehadiran dirimu yang mewarnai hari-hari hidup ku...
Tawa riang saat kita bersama, tangis rindu saat kita berpisah,
namun semua tinggal bias bayang kenangan, semua memudar... semua tinggah pecahan duka...
yang ada kini hanya kelam malam, yang tinggal hanya luka menganga....
aku tak tau harus bagaimana, airmata sudah terkuras mengiring kepergianmu,
aku hanya diam, aku hanya diam
tak ingin menangis dan tak ingin pula tertawa
diam... hanya diam.....
Tawa riang saat kita bersama, tangis rindu saat kita berpisah,
namun semua tinggal bias bayang kenangan, semua memudar... semua tinggah pecahan duka...
yang ada kini hanya kelam malam, yang tinggal hanya luka menganga....
aku tak tau harus bagaimana, airmata sudah terkuras mengiring kepergianmu,
aku hanya diam, aku hanya diam
tak ingin menangis dan tak ingin pula tertawa
diam... hanya diam.....
August 22, 2007
Ketika Mencintai Seseorang
Jika kamu memancing ikan....
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....Janganlah sesekali kamu melepaskannya kembali ke dalam air begitu saja....Karena ia akan sakit oleh karena ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akanmenderita selagi ia masih hidup.Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang...Setelah ia mulai menyayangimu, hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya....Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....Karena dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin tidak akan dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu. ...
Jika kamu menadah air, biarlah mendapat sedapatnya, jangan terlalu mengharap pada kedalaman lengkungannya dan janganlah menganggap wadah itu begitu kokoh....cukuplah menadah sesuai kebutuhanmu. ...Apabila wadah itu sekali retak....tentu sukar bagi kamu untuk menambalnya kembali menjadi seperti semula....Akhirnya kamu akan membuangnya. ...Sedangkan jika kamu mencoba memperbaikinya... mungkin kamu masih dapat mempergunakannya lagi....Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang, terimalah seadanya....Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa....Anggaplah dia manusia biasa....Bila tidak, apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan, tidak mudah bagi kamuuntuk menerimanya. ...akhirnya kamu akan kecewa dan meninggalkannya.Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya, boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan terushingga ke akhir hayat....
Jika kamu telah memiliki sepiring nasi...punyamu pastilah yang terbaik untuk dirimu.Mengenyangkan dan berkhasiat.Mengapa kamu lengah, mencoba mencari makanan yang lain..Terlalu ingin mengejar kelezatan.Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.Dan kamu akan menyesal.Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang kekasih.....kekasihmu itu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu.Menyayangimu dan mengasihimu. ..Mengapa kamu berlengah, mencoba membandingkannya dengan yang lain.mungkin tanpa sadar kamu terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain dan kamu juga yang akan menyesal.
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....Janganlah sesekali kamu melepaskannya kembali ke dalam air begitu saja....Karena ia akan sakit oleh karena ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akanmenderita selagi ia masih hidup.Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang...Setelah ia mulai menyayangimu, hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya....Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....Karena dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin tidak akan dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu. ...
Jika kamu menadah air, biarlah mendapat sedapatnya, jangan terlalu mengharap pada kedalaman lengkungannya dan janganlah menganggap wadah itu begitu kokoh....cukuplah menadah sesuai kebutuhanmu. ...Apabila wadah itu sekali retak....tentu sukar bagi kamu untuk menambalnya kembali menjadi seperti semula....Akhirnya kamu akan membuangnya. ...Sedangkan jika kamu mencoba memperbaikinya... mungkin kamu masih dapat mempergunakannya lagi....Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang, terimalah seadanya....Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa....Anggaplah dia manusia biasa....Bila tidak, apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan, tidak mudah bagi kamuuntuk menerimanya. ...akhirnya kamu akan kecewa dan meninggalkannya.Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya, boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan terushingga ke akhir hayat....
Jika kamu telah memiliki sepiring nasi...punyamu pastilah yang terbaik untuk dirimu.Mengenyangkan dan berkhasiat.Mengapa kamu lengah, mencoba mencari makanan yang lain..Terlalu ingin mengejar kelezatan.Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.Dan kamu akan menyesal.Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang kekasih.....kekasihmu itu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu.Menyayangimu dan mengasihimu. ..Mengapa kamu berlengah, mencoba membandingkannya dengan yang lain.mungkin tanpa sadar kamu terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain dan kamu juga yang akan menyesal.
August 14, 2007
Leyeh-leyeh
Hari ini gw cape banged,dr pagi ampe sore ini kerja-an ga ada abiesnya..klise amat yah?! but i enjoyed today as it goes, ada teman-teman yang buat gw ketawa mesem ampe ketawa narsis,meski sekelebat gambaran kamu hadir di pikiran ku namun kesibukan dan canda borgchat made me laugh and forget a little bit about my sadness.
Kerjaan gw hari ini seperti senapan bombardir yang ga ada brentinya dari ngurusin undangan,fotocopy undangan tandatangan undangan,pengiriman surat-surat, agenda surat, buat konsep surat undangan..pffuiihh... gw kerja kantoran atau rosi ya sebenarnya :) i feel bore dikit tp begitu kerja-an dateng boro-boro ada waktu utk get bored yg ada kelenger gara-gara kecape'an... tapi gw lagi on fire kayanya...
kemaren,hari minggu tepatnya, gw berjanji pada diri sendiri utk rajin-rajin ngisi blogs,tapi belum apa-apa udah telat 2 hari..nasib mu anak-ku...nah makanya sekarang gw sempet2in dey sebelum server gw ceot...
so,segini dulu ye...
Kerjaan gw hari ini seperti senapan bombardir yang ga ada brentinya dari ngurusin undangan,fotocopy undangan tandatangan undangan,pengiriman surat-surat, agenda surat, buat konsep surat undangan..pffuiihh... gw kerja kantoran atau rosi ya sebenarnya :) i feel bore dikit tp begitu kerja-an dateng boro-boro ada waktu utk get bored yg ada kelenger gara-gara kecape'an... tapi gw lagi on fire kayanya...
kemaren,hari minggu tepatnya, gw berjanji pada diri sendiri utk rajin-rajin ngisi blogs,tapi belum apa-apa udah telat 2 hari..nasib mu anak-ku...nah makanya sekarang gw sempet2in dey sebelum server gw ceot...
so,segini dulu ye...
July 18, 2007
Puisi Bagi-Nya
Hangat mentari ku rasakan pagi ini menyentuh wajah ku,
Ku rasakan berkat Ilahi yang tiada jemu memberikan nafas kehidupan bagi insan ciptaan-Nya…
Ku hirup perlahan udara pagi yang segar dan memberikan kelegaan ke dalam relung jiwa….
Ku renungkan ke-akbaran akan kuasa Pencipta-ku, tak mampu aku mengerti akan kasih dan cinta-Nya meski ingin ku dapat menelaah semua itu
Kembali sinar mentari menerpa wajah ku dan serasa kehadiran Sang Ilahi melingkupi ku, ku coba rasakan tangan-Nya memeluk ku melalui kedamaian jiwa yang disematkan ke dalam hati dan perasaan yang ada dalam diriku…
Tanpa sadar ku bisikan doa syukur-ku akan kehadiran-Nya dalam hidupku, meski seringkali aku memberontak menghentakkan tanganku dari genggaman-Nya namun aku ingat dengan kesetiaan-Nya yang luar biasa Dia tetap menunggu-ku, Dia menangis bersama-ku disaat aku merasakan kegetiran hidup yang perih, tersenyum disaat aku merasakan kebahagiaan, menghibur dan menolong ku disaat langkah hidup ku terhenti karena beban yang harus ku pikul, namun satu hal yang ku tahu Dia tak pernah tinggalkan-ku..
Dia selalu ada lewat sinar mentari yang cerah, Dia hadir bersama kicau burung yang menyanyikan syukur bagi keagungan-Nya, Dia disana saat terang pagi menggantikan kelam malam…
Dia ada disampingku, menjaga dan melindungiku, memastikan aku dalam keadaan baik-baik saja karena aku beserta-NYA….
Ku rasakan berkat Ilahi yang tiada jemu memberikan nafas kehidupan bagi insan ciptaan-Nya…
Ku hirup perlahan udara pagi yang segar dan memberikan kelegaan ke dalam relung jiwa….
Ku renungkan ke-akbaran akan kuasa Pencipta-ku, tak mampu aku mengerti akan kasih dan cinta-Nya meski ingin ku dapat menelaah semua itu
Kembali sinar mentari menerpa wajah ku dan serasa kehadiran Sang Ilahi melingkupi ku, ku coba rasakan tangan-Nya memeluk ku melalui kedamaian jiwa yang disematkan ke dalam hati dan perasaan yang ada dalam diriku…
Tanpa sadar ku bisikan doa syukur-ku akan kehadiran-Nya dalam hidupku, meski seringkali aku memberontak menghentakkan tanganku dari genggaman-Nya namun aku ingat dengan kesetiaan-Nya yang luar biasa Dia tetap menunggu-ku, Dia menangis bersama-ku disaat aku merasakan kegetiran hidup yang perih, tersenyum disaat aku merasakan kebahagiaan, menghibur dan menolong ku disaat langkah hidup ku terhenti karena beban yang harus ku pikul, namun satu hal yang ku tahu Dia tak pernah tinggalkan-ku..
Dia selalu ada lewat sinar mentari yang cerah, Dia hadir bersama kicau burung yang menyanyikan syukur bagi keagungan-Nya, Dia disana saat terang pagi menggantikan kelam malam…
Dia ada disampingku, menjaga dan melindungiku, memastikan aku dalam keadaan baik-baik saja karena aku beserta-NYA….
July 11, 2007
#1: Repeated contact...at least three separate verbal or non-verbal clues need to be given. Why? The first time he's going to look around and make sure it's really him that you are flirting with. The second, he knows it's him and he gets flushed and pleased. (At this point he'll probably walk by you and at least smile..he's checking you out a little more.) The third time you can express interest-by introducing yourself, or commenting on his tie, or waving from across the room. Now he knows you are open to meeting and it will be a cinch.
#2: Whisper...it always gets their attention. Ask them if you can tell them a secret...Then whisper in their ear: 'I just love your tie...can I buy it from you when you are done with it?'
#3: Don't sit with other women...men don't want you to reject them in front of an audience. If you do go out with a friend...separate every so often or take a breather from talking...men do not want to risk your disapproval by interrupting you. (You have already missed out on a lot of quality polite men who didn't want to interrupt.)
#4: Treat men gently...If someone you are not interested in approaches you and flirts ...be nice.... All the other men are watching to see what you do. If you laugh after he leaves or show visual disapproval, you are cutting your chances on anyone else approaching you. Try shaking his hand and saying something like: 'It was so nice of you to approach me...what's your name? Tom? Tom, I know how hard it is to meet people...I might have a girlfriend who would be interested in you.'
#5: IF he acts like a JERK! Be polite but firm. Hand him a copy of the men's version of 'Flirting with Greatness' and ask him to go practice on someone else. Firmly say that 'lines' with sexual overtones are not only not attractive to you but to most other women in the world.
#6: Use the Buddy system. Walk through a group of men and have someone watch to see who's checking you out.
#7: Become More Irresistible! Show a little leg....wear higher heels...the redder the lipstick the more available and noticeable you will be. Arch your back a little as you sit up tall and cross your legs high. Wear earrings that are interesting enough to make someone comment on them.
#8: Look over your shoulder...and smile at him. This asymmetrical position is always a signal you are interested.
#9: Give him a look all over from head to toe - nod with approval and then flash him your most winning smile.
#10: Remember that flirting is a way of connecting from the heart and acknowledging someone. Be generous! Have Fun!
#2: Whisper...it always gets their attention. Ask them if you can tell them a secret...Then whisper in their ear: 'I just love your tie...can I buy it from you when you are done with it?'
#3: Don't sit with other women...men don't want you to reject them in front of an audience. If you do go out with a friend...separate every so often or take a breather from talking...men do not want to risk your disapproval by interrupting you. (You have already missed out on a lot of quality polite men who didn't want to interrupt.)
#4: Treat men gently...If someone you are not interested in approaches you and flirts ...be nice.... All the other men are watching to see what you do. If you laugh after he leaves or show visual disapproval, you are cutting your chances on anyone else approaching you. Try shaking his hand and saying something like: 'It was so nice of you to approach me...what's your name? Tom? Tom, I know how hard it is to meet people...I might have a girlfriend who would be interested in you.'
#5: IF he acts like a JERK! Be polite but firm. Hand him a copy of the men's version of 'Flirting with Greatness' and ask him to go practice on someone else. Firmly say that 'lines' with sexual overtones are not only not attractive to you but to most other women in the world.
#6: Use the Buddy system. Walk through a group of men and have someone watch to see who's checking you out.
#7: Become More Irresistible! Show a little leg....wear higher heels...the redder the lipstick the more available and noticeable you will be. Arch your back a little as you sit up tall and cross your legs high. Wear earrings that are interesting enough to make someone comment on them.
#8: Look over your shoulder...and smile at him. This asymmetrical position is always a signal you are interested.
#9: Give him a look all over from head to toe - nod with approval and then flash him your most winning smile.
#10: Remember that flirting is a way of connecting from the heart and acknowledging someone. Be generous! Have Fun!
Mengapa kamu hadir disaat aku ingin sendiri,
Mengapa kamu ada disaat aku sedang terluka,
Kehadiranmu yang tiba-tiba,
Sejumput perhatian yang ku rasa
Semua menghadirkan rasa yang tidak siap aku terima…
Meski saat melihat pesonamu, ada rasa kagum yang mewarnai hati,
Meski saat mendengar suaramu ada sebersit rindu untuk bertemu
Meski saat kau memandangku ada gelitik rona merah mebias wajahku
Kamu pergilah…
Jangan warnai hariku dengan kehadiranmu,
Kamu pergilah…
Jangan racuni pikiranku dengan gambar wajahmu,
Kamu pergilah…
Jangan buat aku mencintaimu…
Mengapa kamu ada disaat aku sedang terluka,
Kehadiranmu yang tiba-tiba,
Sejumput perhatian yang ku rasa
Semua menghadirkan rasa yang tidak siap aku terima…
Meski saat melihat pesonamu, ada rasa kagum yang mewarnai hati,
Meski saat mendengar suaramu ada sebersit rindu untuk bertemu
Meski saat kau memandangku ada gelitik rona merah mebias wajahku
Kamu pergilah…
Jangan warnai hariku dengan kehadiranmu,
Kamu pergilah…
Jangan racuni pikiranku dengan gambar wajahmu,
Kamu pergilah…
Jangan buat aku mencintaimu…
I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But, when I think of you I long to feel your touch
To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine
I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should have made my move when you looked in my eyes
'Cause, by now, I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side
Maybe I dream too much
But, when I think of you I long to feel your touch
To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine
I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should have made my move when you looked in my eyes
'Cause, by now, I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side
July 2, 2007
pagi ini aku memulai dengan pekerjaan yang lumayan be"jibun" di meja ku, tak ada waktu untuk berjalan keluar ruangan atau sekedar ber"interact" with my friends..
namun siang hari karena perut yang sudah tak kuat menahan musik keroncong dari dalamnya maka aku dan teman ku memesan sayur pecel mengingat masalah "size" body agak melewati limit ^o^ well, alhasil kita makan sama-sama meski dengan menu pecel yang sekedarnya,setelah beberapa suapan baru aku sadari ternyata bumbu kacang yang ayu buat pedas-nya se-anjrit-anjrit, seperti naga rasanya mulut ku, dan saat itu langsung rasa kenyang memenuhi lambung ku....
ku habiskan siang hari dengan bergelut kembali with my paper and my compie,tak terasa hari menjelang sore,satu persatu teman-temanku bersiap untuk berlomba dengan dentang jam pulang kantor kami...
sore hari saat semua temanku sudah tenang didalam kendaraan yang mereka tumpangi aku masih memainkan jari jemari ku diatas keyboard compie ku
ada satu pelajaran hidup yang tanpa sadar aku dapati hari ini lewat hari yg aku lalui, bahwa kita harus selalu siap melewati hari dan kehidupan dengan sendiri...without anyone in your life, dan jangan pernah mengharapkan perhatian dari seseorang yang tidak pernah dapat engkau miliki...
namun siang hari karena perut yang sudah tak kuat menahan musik keroncong dari dalamnya maka aku dan teman ku memesan sayur pecel mengingat masalah "size" body agak melewati limit ^o^ well, alhasil kita makan sama-sama meski dengan menu pecel yang sekedarnya,setelah beberapa suapan baru aku sadari ternyata bumbu kacang yang ayu buat pedas-nya se-anjrit-anjrit, seperti naga rasanya mulut ku, dan saat itu langsung rasa kenyang memenuhi lambung ku....
ku habiskan siang hari dengan bergelut kembali with my paper and my compie,tak terasa hari menjelang sore,satu persatu teman-temanku bersiap untuk berlomba dengan dentang jam pulang kantor kami...
sore hari saat semua temanku sudah tenang didalam kendaraan yang mereka tumpangi aku masih memainkan jari jemari ku diatas keyboard compie ku
ada satu pelajaran hidup yang tanpa sadar aku dapati hari ini lewat hari yg aku lalui, bahwa kita harus selalu siap melewati hari dan kehidupan dengan sendiri...without anyone in your life, dan jangan pernah mengharapkan perhatian dari seseorang yang tidak pernah dapat engkau miliki...
WaNiTa TaUrUs
Wanita yang bisanya cukup langsing. Wanita Taurus umumnya lucu dan menyenangkan, dengan struktur wajah persegi, dan tulang pipi tinggi.Matanya yang bundar memancarkan sinar kecerdasan dan keingintahuan. Anda tidak akan banyak melihat wajah bundar di kalangan kaum wanita Taurus, dan umumnya mereka memiliki garis wajah yang kuat. Ia adalah orang yang selalu berubah. Jika dia marah, ia tidak akan memperlihatkannya, dan akan memendamnya sendiri untuk waktu lama,dan akan mengingatnya satu persatu dengan tajam. Jika dia benar benar marah kepada anda, anda akan menjadi orang yang benar-benar asing untuk anda.Ia adalah orang yang sabar, tetapi selalu membutuhkan hal baru yang dapat menarik perhatiannya. Ia sangat tidak suka rapat berlama-lama. Ia mungkin saja jatuh cinta kepada anda hari ini, dan di hari berikutnya ia dapat bertindak seakan-akan tidak pernah mencintai anda sama sekali. Ia memiliki kesabaran denan apa yang ia ingin lakukan dan tidak akan pernah menyerah sampai ia berhasil mencapainya.Ia akan sangat terfokus akan pekerjaannya sampai ia memiliki alasan kuat untuk menghentikan proyek yang ditanganinya. Uang bagi wanita Taurus bukanlah faktor paling penting dalam kehidupan. Ia berpikir bahwa uang hanyalah cara untuk mendapatkan kehidupan yang layak. Ia merasa lebih puas ketika berhasil mencapai tujuannya daripada hidup ditengah kemewahan dan baju indah.Jika anda menyukai wanita yang banyak berpikir mengenai cinta dan romansa, maka anda memilih cewek yang salah. Anda tidak akan pernah dapat menahannya dirumah, ia suka bekerja dan tidak suka bekerja didalam rumah. Ia suka hewan dan suka dikelilingi hewan.Cinta ada dikepalanya, tetapi Kebebasan ada dalam jiwanya. Ia memiliki ide sendiri mengenai cinta dan takut untuk menunjukkan perasaannya yang paling dalam karena takut ditolak. Ia bukan tipe yang suka berbicara mengenai cinta, tetapi ia memiliki cara yang khusus untuk menunjukkannya. Ia tidak pandai menunjukkan kapan ia jatuh cinta,tetapi jika ia mencintai anda, ia akan benar-benar jujur kepada anda, lebih jujur daripada wanita lainnya.Ia akan jujur kepada orang yang dicintainya, tetapi pada saat itu juga ia kelihatan seakan menjauh. Anda akan memiliki hubungan baik dengannya,jika anda memberikan kebebasan. Jangan paksa dia untuk bermain dalam permainan poker yang ia benci, tapi biarkan dia pergi bersama teman-temannya jika ia memang ingin.Ia akan sangat berbeda dengan kebanyakan cewek, dan dia berpikir bahwa berbeda adalah salah satu keunikan dia. Ia adalah figur publik, tetapi tidak dimiliki oleh siapapun. Ia tidak akan bersama dengan anda jika dipikirnya anda tidak tulus. Ia menyukai tipe cowok yang memiliki karakter, tetapi bukan karakter yang menyaingi dirinya.Cintailah dirinya, tapi jangan keterlaluan, karena ia takut bahwa hal itu akan membatasi kemerdekaannya. Ia selalu mencolok dikeramaian karena sesuatu yang digunakannya untuk 'menantang' anda. Ia bisa saja berdandan macam petani miskin untuk menikmati makan malam di restoran mewah, atau berdandan bagaikan seorang biarawati dalam suatu pesta koktil.Jika anda seoran politikus yang sedang mencari istri, ia akan sangat cocok, karena ia cerdas dan dapatbergaul dengan baik dengan berbagai lapisan masyarakat. Ia juga bukan tipe pencemburu, karena ia harus tahu secara menyeluruh sebelum menerima anda dalam kehidupannya. Ia memiliki keingintahuan yang lebih hebat mengenai kehidupan daripada sekedar bertanya tanya apakah anda sekarang sedang main mata dengan orang lain.Jika anda menjaga jarak darinya, atau pergi selama beberapa hari, ia akan lebih tidak memperdulikan anda.Bahkan ketika sedang berpacaran dengan anda, ia juga dapat menyukai orang lain, jika anda tidak memiliki sesuatu yang ia cari. Ia tidak akan pernah mengecewakan anda atau bersembunyi di belakang anda untuk mempermalukan anda, tetapi ia adalah tipe yang akan mengatakan langsung kepada anda "Kita lebih baik putus."
Ia akan selalu ingat cinta pertamanya.Wanita Taurus memegang rekor terhebat mengenai perceraian, karena dia tidak perduli mengenai apa yang dipikirkan orang lain mengenai dirinya, tetapi ia berpikir bahwa segala sesuatu harus dilakukan demi "Kebahagiaan" . Ia memiliki banyak teman yang sesuai dan ia yakin dengan kemampuan dirinya sendiri, maka anda akan sangat sering melihat dia berhenti untuk berpikir sebelum melakukan sesuatu.Jika ia memikirkan masalah sesuatu, ia akan segera melakukannya. Ia memiliki banyak penggemar yang siap melamarnya, karena tantangan pada dirinya yang selalu berubah. Ia dapat menjadi orang yang manis dan lucu,tetapi kemudian menjadi dingin dan keras. Dia memiliki gaya sendiri dalam berdandan.Anda dapat melihatnya berdandan seperti orang kuno, tapi besok ia tampil bagaikan berasal dari planet Mars. Ia akan mengatur rambutnya dengan cara yang unik, demikian pula dengan busana dan dandanannya. Ia suka mempelajari mimpi dan pemikiran anda.Ia suka menggoda anda dan bercanda dengan anda. Jika ia melakukan sesuatu yang salah, maka ia tidak akan menyembunyikannya kepada anda.Tetapi jangan bertanya mengenai hal itu, jika ia sedang tidak berminat membicarakannya kepada anda. Ia tidak suka meminjam uang, dan menganggap semua janji serius. Jika anda berjanji akan membayar kembali, sebaiknya anda melakukannya. Jika anda inginberhasil dengan wanita Taurus, maka jangan pernah cemburuan atau posesif. Jangan berpikiran sempit, jangan mengkritik hal-hal remeh dan tidak penting. Cobalah menyukai semua temannya, dan biarkan dia memiliki saat pribadinya, maka ia akan menjadi sangat manis kepada anda.
(benar tidaknya who knows..only me yang tahu,hehehehe)
Ia akan selalu ingat cinta pertamanya.Wanita Taurus memegang rekor terhebat mengenai perceraian, karena dia tidak perduli mengenai apa yang dipikirkan orang lain mengenai dirinya, tetapi ia berpikir bahwa segala sesuatu harus dilakukan demi "Kebahagiaan" . Ia memiliki banyak teman yang sesuai dan ia yakin dengan kemampuan dirinya sendiri, maka anda akan sangat sering melihat dia berhenti untuk berpikir sebelum melakukan sesuatu.Jika ia memikirkan masalah sesuatu, ia akan segera melakukannya. Ia memiliki banyak penggemar yang siap melamarnya, karena tantangan pada dirinya yang selalu berubah. Ia dapat menjadi orang yang manis dan lucu,tetapi kemudian menjadi dingin dan keras. Dia memiliki gaya sendiri dalam berdandan.Anda dapat melihatnya berdandan seperti orang kuno, tapi besok ia tampil bagaikan berasal dari planet Mars. Ia akan mengatur rambutnya dengan cara yang unik, demikian pula dengan busana dan dandanannya. Ia suka mempelajari mimpi dan pemikiran anda.Ia suka menggoda anda dan bercanda dengan anda. Jika ia melakukan sesuatu yang salah, maka ia tidak akan menyembunyikannya kepada anda.Tetapi jangan bertanya mengenai hal itu, jika ia sedang tidak berminat membicarakannya kepada anda. Ia tidak suka meminjam uang, dan menganggap semua janji serius. Jika anda berjanji akan membayar kembali, sebaiknya anda melakukannya. Jika anda inginberhasil dengan wanita Taurus, maka jangan pernah cemburuan atau posesif. Jangan berpikiran sempit, jangan mengkritik hal-hal remeh dan tidak penting. Cobalah menyukai semua temannya, dan biarkan dia memiliki saat pribadinya, maka ia akan menjadi sangat manis kepada anda.
(benar tidaknya who knows..only me yang tahu,hehehehe)
HE
he
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
he
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
he
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
he may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
he may not be what he may seem
Inside his shell
he
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
he
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die
he
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
he
I'll take his laughter and his tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where he goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is he
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
he
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
he
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
he may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
he may not be what he may seem
Inside his shell
he
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
he
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die
he
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
he
I'll take his laughter and his tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where he goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is he
June 27, 2007
NeWs MoRnIn9
Pernah kah dalam hidup kamu merasa sendirian, dewean,alone-an,sendiri wae,tec... well, this time itu yang gw rasa and it's realy sucks i guess, this quite situation killing me... damn, napa bisa se-sepi ini ya dunia..
@d office pun saat ini seperti di kuburan, boss pada ngabrit ke luar negeri dan luar kota, si betho take a day off..ppffuuuiihhh, ini kantor atau ruang jenasah, satu hal yang menghibur adalah sekarang waktunya Wednesday Slow Machine-nya KIS FM jadi lagu-lagu yang diputer adalah lagu2 yang enak didengar... enaknya ngapain kalo sendiri gini ye???
sepanjang hari ini gw belum mendapatkan kejadian yang "aneh" or "fantastic" cuma gw baru nyadar gw udah buat hati seseorang yang pernah ber-arti dalam hidup gw terluka dan he's really pist off to me just becoz i can't fulfill he needs, and he think i had found somebodyelse to have fun with, well, "hell with his thinking!!!" Hell, with your s**t d**k, i don't need it, it's okay if you never understand the way i feel about you...take your time to pist off until the end of the day-pun gw ga peduli,gak penting getu!!! cuma satu hal,apa yang gw tulis di YM itu sejujurnya,hopely kamu punya open minded jd ga menilai cinta dari isi celana dalem doang....
Nah,sekarang gw rada lega-an tuch, back to laptop,weits i mean back to my pc...kerja lagi...thx udah baca blogs akika,cu again in the next chapter of my stories ^o^
@d office pun saat ini seperti di kuburan, boss pada ngabrit ke luar negeri dan luar kota, si betho take a day off..ppffuuuiihhh, ini kantor atau ruang jenasah, satu hal yang menghibur adalah sekarang waktunya Wednesday Slow Machine-nya KIS FM jadi lagu-lagu yang diputer adalah lagu2 yang enak didengar... enaknya ngapain kalo sendiri gini ye???
sepanjang hari ini gw belum mendapatkan kejadian yang "aneh" or "fantastic" cuma gw baru nyadar gw udah buat hati seseorang yang pernah ber-arti dalam hidup gw terluka dan he's really pist off to me just becoz i can't fulfill he needs, and he think i had found somebodyelse to have fun with, well, "hell with his thinking!!!" Hell, with your s**t d**k, i don't need it, it's okay if you never understand the way i feel about you...take your time to pist off until the end of the day-pun gw ga peduli,gak penting getu!!! cuma satu hal,apa yang gw tulis di YM itu sejujurnya,hopely kamu punya open minded jd ga menilai cinta dari isi celana dalem doang....
Nah,sekarang gw rada lega-an tuch, back to laptop,weits i mean back to my pc...kerja lagi...thx udah baca blogs akika,cu again in the next chapter of my stories ^o^
Email dari Tuhan
Amsal 15:3 "Mata Tuhan ada di segala tempat, mengawasi orang jahat dan orang baik."
Kepada Yth:
Tuhan Yesus di Surga
Dengan Hormat...
Tuhan, aku ingin tahu... Mengapa Kau ijinkan hal-hal yang tidak adil terjadi di dunia ini? Mengapa aku harus memberikan pipi yang kanan jika ditampar pipi yang kiri ? Mengapa aku harus mencintai musuhku ? Mengapa sepertinya aku harus selalu mengalah walau dirugikan ? Mengapa aku harus bersabar atas banyak hal yang tidak menyenangkan ?Tolong Tuhan, jawab aku biar aku mengerti, karena aku merasa sangat lelah menganggung semua ini.
Reply from Heaven :
AnakKu terkasih, tidakkah kausadari bahwa mataKu selalu tertuju padamu ? Aku tau saat kau diperlakukan tidak adil. Aku melihat saat airmatamu mengalir menahan perasaan jengkel yang tak terucapkan. Aku bahkan ikut merasakan kepedihan hatimu saat kau dikecewakan. Tapi taukah kau bahwa Aku semakin mengasihimu saat Aku melihat kau memaafkan orang lain yang menyakitimu dan bukannya membalas keburukan mereka ? Dan melihatmu bersabar atas sikap jahat yang mereka tujukan padamu membuatKu sangat marah. Aku ijinkan semua itu terjadi supaya kau terlatih makin hari makin sempurna dan menyerupai Aku. Tapi, pada saatnya Aku akan menggantikan semuanya dan memberkatimu sesuai kemuliaan dan kekayaanKu.
Kepada Yth:
Tuhan Yesus di Surga
Dengan Hormat...
Tuhan, aku ingin tahu... Mengapa Kau ijinkan hal-hal yang tidak adil terjadi di dunia ini? Mengapa aku harus memberikan pipi yang kanan jika ditampar pipi yang kiri ? Mengapa aku harus mencintai musuhku ? Mengapa sepertinya aku harus selalu mengalah walau dirugikan ? Mengapa aku harus bersabar atas banyak hal yang tidak menyenangkan ?Tolong Tuhan, jawab aku biar aku mengerti, karena aku merasa sangat lelah menganggung semua ini.
Reply from Heaven :
AnakKu terkasih, tidakkah kausadari bahwa mataKu selalu tertuju padamu ? Aku tau saat kau diperlakukan tidak adil. Aku melihat saat airmatamu mengalir menahan perasaan jengkel yang tak terucapkan. Aku bahkan ikut merasakan kepedihan hatimu saat kau dikecewakan. Tapi taukah kau bahwa Aku semakin mengasihimu saat Aku melihat kau memaafkan orang lain yang menyakitimu dan bukannya membalas keburukan mereka ? Dan melihatmu bersabar atas sikap jahat yang mereka tujukan padamu membuatKu sangat marah. Aku ijinkan semua itu terjadi supaya kau terlatih makin hari makin sempurna dan menyerupai Aku. Tapi, pada saatnya Aku akan menggantikan semuanya dan memberkatimu sesuai kemuliaan dan kekayaanKu.
June 13, 2007
If You'Re NoT HeRe by Menudo
Gotta catch that plane at 7:30
Why haven't you come to say goodbye
Time is running out and I'm still waiting
I'm so lost without you, I could die
Yesterday you said you loved me
Everything seemed to be fine
Today you're not here, I'm so lonely
It's the waiting that's driving me out of my mind
Don't know how I'll sing in that big city
How can I perform if you're not there
This will be the worst of all my journeys
The image of your face will follow me everywhere
I need your tender kisses
The feel of your hands, your caress
Your perfume has me burning
My heart is yearning to touch you
I need you so much
If you're not here, by my side
Can't hold back the tears
I try to hide
Don't think I can take it
I know I won't make it
Make it without you
If you're not here, by my side
Only your love keeps me alive
No sense in dreaming
My life has no meaning
If you're not here
I need your tender kisses
The feel of your hands, your caress
Your perfume has me burning
My heart is yearning to touch you
I need you so much
If you're not here, by my side
Can't hold back the tears
I try to hide
Don't think I can take it
I know I won't make it
Make it withou youIf you're not here, by my side
Only your love keeps me alive
No sense in dreaming
My life has no meaning
If you're not here
Why haven't you come to say goodbye
Time is running out and I'm still waiting
I'm so lost without you, I could die
Yesterday you said you loved me
Everything seemed to be fine
Today you're not here, I'm so lonely
It's the waiting that's driving me out of my mind
Don't know how I'll sing in that big city
How can I perform if you're not there
This will be the worst of all my journeys
The image of your face will follow me everywhere
I need your tender kisses
The feel of your hands, your caress
Your perfume has me burning
My heart is yearning to touch you
I need you so much
If you're not here, by my side
Can't hold back the tears
I try to hide
Don't think I can take it
I know I won't make it
Make it without you
If you're not here, by my side
Only your love keeps me alive
No sense in dreaming
My life has no meaning
If you're not here
I need your tender kisses
The feel of your hands, your caress
Your perfume has me burning
My heart is yearning to touch you
I need you so much
If you're not here, by my side
Can't hold back the tears
I try to hide
Don't think I can take it
I know I won't make it
Make it withou youIf you're not here, by my side
Only your love keeps me alive
No sense in dreaming
My life has no meaning
If you're not here
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