"is it love or just wishful thinking... ataukah perasaanku saja?"

potongan syair lagu Aku Makin Cinta yang dinyanyikan Regina  pada saat persaingan dalam Indonesia Idol menggelitik hati dan perasaan ku, yeah "i think i'd been in that situation and those foolish feelings of love...hmmm" and  now i try so hard to feel that feeling again but honestly i can't feel anything at all.. it's like you feel something hurt inside you but you're not able to cry it out or make it out of your heart, it's just there that creepy feeling is there, never go away....

i think i had enough with all those men (who admit they were a man but in the fact all they do just hurting others feeling, bloody cold... hehehe)

Or perhaps it's the answer from my prayer to stop making my heart love again, and im OK with that

Now, i ain't affraid with loneliness or being alone again, just trying so hard to fulfil my life's direction, seeing my close family and friends gone by the death, i don't know when will my time arrive, just do the prepare ...