after the huge fought on Saturday,7 January, i told him "i hate u" ...must be injured him badly...
These are the chat after Saturday afternoon :
(09 January, Monday)
"and deeply sorry for injures you with my words and my mind... Gibran was right, if someone injures you, u will forget that injury but if you injures someon you will always remember that.."
"hehehehe... aneh juga biasanya bbm-an sm kamu dari pagi sampai malam, tapi sejak sabtu sudah bisa di hitung dengan jari bbm-an sama dikau, tp lama kelamaan pasti terbiasa ya, and aku juga bilang ke dikau keputusan apapun yang kamu ambil untuk aku jalanin aku akan jalanin,right?"
"thank you utk for few weeks sudah ngisi hidup aku dengan kebahagiaan, sungguh being with you made me happy, meski hanya utk dr tgl.09 Oktober s/d 28 Pktober, mav after that aku cuma bisa ngajak berantem mulu...hehehehe"
"sabar ya kl mungkin beberapa hari ke depan aku suka bbm-in hal2 yang ga penting yang mungkin ganggu kamu (bukan ttg hub kamu dan dia) tapi aku janji berusaha lepasin kamu seperti yg kamu mau..hehehehe..."
Aku seperti berdiri di jalan yg bercabang.... melepasnya atau tetap menunggunya? as christian i've been teach about faith, and believe that if we wanted something that good in God's will we have to believe that we already received it....but facing the fact about this guy,i loss my faith about it... he made me stop thinking about miracle again, miracle about love..
but yes i care about him... LOVE?hmmmm not arrive that position yet...
then why it is so hard for me to let him do his life as his wish, if he choose to stay with her so what? i know God could change his heart but what i don't know is he the right guy for me or not?and only God knows that...
so i choose God's will, jika saat ini DIA menginginkan aku menjauh dari dia yg aku sayangi so beat it i'll do it... sad?yes, hearted broken?of course, but i still do it anyway, GOD's choice is the best for me...
