alot of things hapens since 16 March 2010, one the most hitting me was when i lost my mom for gud, she went into Lord's hand on 02 Dec 2011, she'd been suffered from her illness "cerosis" she stayed at hospital for 15 days, and giving into Lord's hand on Dec 02nd,2010 (miss you mom)
in romance sequel, hmmmm being HTS, awesome journey but it came to the end finaly just b'cos he's got caught (we exactly) cheeted,1st time so hard thru days without his presence but lately i realise we had to stop this realtionship, now i could run the days freely from heartache C",)
another story, well i knew this guy quite long enough,nice guy, i even liked him but silently cos alot of reasons tobe thought... shortly, last year (2010) we got closer accidently,but again i was being in HTS situation,yeah you tell me sucks... but glad he told me the truth for the beginning..
this stupid feeling of me few moments ago had back again... and this was become my huge mistake carried away with the feelings that crashed me again for the last time... im sorry for giving him bad times, im sorry for asking him to do something that he wasn't able to do, im sorry for put me into wrong positon just b'cos we gt closer.
Now i am trying to leave all behind,one of the time, putting again the pieces of my heart, i know it won't back into whole pieces like the old days but the crack remind me to learn more wiser treat my own heart...
Now 2012, don't know yet what will hapen, just thankful for the life journey in the last year, with everything inside it.. and hope this year will be better....
So, to you all Happy New Year 2012, keep the faith, keep the spirit.... GBU abudantly
