“he said
he loved me…out of the blue he said that…just when I felt everything had
ended between us…” didn’t know why all that bulls came out just like that… I made
up to my best friend just because I was dying to hear he said that word to me
directly…not from texted…well after all these terrible things happen between
us, terrible things made by me to be exact...but i knew it won't happen...
I’m
kinda miss him right now, but I should’ve known that he’s out of my league!
There’s no way I could make him want me the way he used to be, thanks to my
stupid moron jealousy. And I think he stops missing me and I kinda get
used to it either. Funny, it won’t take too long to get use to your heart of
the loss. Here I am, so afraid of loosing him, I beg, I talked a lot of mumbo
jumbo self defense, I sold my self respect to a guy who doesn’t even want me to
back, just because he tired of my jealousy and because of his feeling to other
girl… beside I have no right to make him stay in my life or days I believe he
has his own happiness there. I think it’s not that so hard for him proving that
he’s not that into me. It’s okay I deserved that anyway…hurt but I deserved, I hurted
him too much with my jealousy and assumptions, I even afraid of loving him
again, will hurting him again….don’t wanna that happen.
I just
thankfull that for a moment even for a while I could pretend that he is mine….
Missing you....
