"iya sayang...", she said.... "buktikan..." he said, "barusan gue panggil sayang khan..." she said again, "preeeettt..." then they laughed happily
Ga tau harus bersikap dan berpikir bagaimana saat she told me about the story. harusnya ga jadi masalah atau me"ganggu" pikiran gue, beside she's my best friend... lagipula this is free country, we don't have any connection at all, he's married guy, i don't own him, if he and she wants to have something special that's their chioce, me nothing to do with any of that... setengah part gue baik baik tapi setengah lagi i was on shocking theraphy.
well gw coba siy utk terlihat "baik-baik" saja tapi ternyata sulit menahan the tears yg mewakili gambaran hati dan perasaan gw... i know i know gw harusnya bisa lebih kuat and tough mengingat "he's not yours vq..you damn stupid girl...so don't let him hurts you by his attitude...dia ga akan pernah memikirkan perasaan elo..."
ga tau mana yg lbh membuat misrable, sahabat yg "flirt" with a guy that she knows you ever have crush for, or a guy who have your heart and still response to your best friend's flirt? Rasanya ingin pergi menjauh dari mereka berdua just to make my feeling fine. Tapi sisi lain hati gue mengatakan,"come on Vq it's only a flirt,screw them...everyone flirt to each other...you fucked him for God sake....do u forget that" and it makes me more worst than all the shit....and it supposed to make me better, right.,...
I need to go... really got to go... from the pain....and from my self .....
